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i need to stop loving little boys.
especially when little boys feel their grown enough to be with big women.
'cause that's what i am to them -- a big woman.
they just don't realize that.
and i'm not helping them realize that.
but they're so cute!
i also need to stop loving grown men who feel they're too grown for me.
even though i know i'm [relatively] the most grown female they'll ever have the chance to be with,
they don't know that,
so i'm wasting my time.
and, lastly, i need to stop resenting grown men who aren't grown at all.
nobody CHOOSES to be at the stage they're at.
we all have different experiences and are led to different lifestyles.
i need to stop pushing people away for not being me.
that's cocky and it's selfish.
i do love myself, though.
it's now a truth.
i've come to terms with it.
i no longer feel conceited to admit it.
i love myself.
and i deserve the best.