mid-summer update
Well, I think that the summer is about half over. That means that fall is growing ever-nearer. I'm very excited about MIlligan. Very excited. I think that Jack-star and I will have tons of fun and I will meet lots of cool people and start a very cool 3-year period of learning, growth and youth. Because I've been moving around so much throughout the last few years, I really need this to be the case. ALso, because I want it so badly to go so well, I have this haunting fear that it wont. You know when you want something so badly that you can't help but fear the opposide will happen. THis is what has been happening to me lately. I've been afraid that I will get there and Jackie and I will end up hating eachother and I won't meet any soulmates and I will be filled with regret. THat is mostly what I am afraid of - regret. Aren't we all? THen my mind drifts back to FGCU and how much fun I had and how I already met wicked cool people and built relationships. THen I begin to wonder if I made the right choice.
Now, I know what you're thinking, or at least what you should be thinking - "Where is GOd in all of this." THe truth is, during this whole previously described thought process, He's nowhere. It's not until after I've worked myself up into a frenzy and I can't sleep that I begin to remember that He has plans to prosper me, and that all I can do is what I can do. I have nothing to fear because when I am honest with myself, I admit that He is on my side. I know He is on my side.
That being said, I ask for prayer. I ask that you would pray for my mental welbeing, that I would stay strong and maintain the Joy of the Lord. Also, that my MIlligan experience would be unbelieveable- that I would find a whole bunch of kindered spirits and become an amazing musician and find my very own strapping young christian musician.
Workcamp is coming up and I cannot be more excited. I really can't. I love to serve people, I think it is when I ma the most happy and liberated. I think that's why I like my job so much. ok people, I think that is all. Thanks for reading and hopefully something interesting will happen to me so that you will have something better to read. :)
Now, I know what you're thinking, or at least what you should be thinking - "Where is GOd in all of this." THe truth is, during this whole previously described thought process, He's nowhere. It's not until after I've worked myself up into a frenzy and I can't sleep that I begin to remember that He has plans to prosper me, and that all I can do is what I can do. I have nothing to fear because when I am honest with myself, I admit that He is on my side. I know He is on my side.
That being said, I ask for prayer. I ask that you would pray for my mental welbeing, that I would stay strong and maintain the Joy of the Lord. Also, that my MIlligan experience would be unbelieveable- that I would find a whole bunch of kindered spirits and become an amazing musician and find my very own strapping young christian musician.
Workcamp is coming up and I cannot be more excited. I really can't. I love to serve people, I think it is when I ma the most happy and liberated. I think that's why I like my job so much. ok people, I think that is all. Thanks for reading and hopefully something interesting will happen to me so that you will have something better to read. :)