2 days...
ahhh- there are so many people i want to see/spend time with & so much i haveta do and want to do & i am just here for 2 more days!!! soooo crazy!... & my mom & i have lost the majority of our closeness... since i am always gone & stuff- & shes trying but its just, i've removed myself- & its so sad because in a few days she will be living here allll by herself- thats what kills me- even though im gone a lot, im still HERE- now its a kinda big house- just for her- its really sad- and she kept like talking to me & crying this evening- i just am so weird w/ the way i act lately- i dont really acknowledge my emotions to some people, but then i do to others- i dont know... i cant believe i leave so soon though- i am really close to being done packing- & most of whats left is last minute stuff-
my mom wanted to leave around 8 on friday morning, but i said, why? i mean, so we can get there early to do nothing? i know that theres a lot to do there, but i dont think ill be up to it & there will be sooo many people there that night anyways... i mean, i will be there for four years- its no longer a vacation spot, its my "home"-- so i'd rather leave here later- this is where ill miss & want to spend the most time before i move in... even though most everyone has school/work but stilllll then i can pack the car fri morn & make the most out of thursday night... so we will probably leave my house a little before noon on friday- i have to drive down alllll by myselfffff!!!! im not worried- i like to drive- sometimes by myself- but its just that im gonna be sad by being alone in college anyways, and then precedeing that is a 6 hour drive on some boring-ass roads... yay for music! im tired but so mentally hyper- like thinking of things to pack, do, etc.- even though theres not too much more to do- hmmmm
my mom wanted to leave around 8 on friday morning, but i said, why? i mean, so we can get there early to do nothing? i know that theres a lot to do there, but i dont think ill be up to it & there will be sooo many people there that night anyways... i mean, i will be there for four years- its no longer a vacation spot, its my "home"-- so i'd rather leave here later- this is where ill miss & want to spend the most time before i move in... even though most everyone has school/work but stilllll then i can pack the car fri morn & make the most out of thursday night... so we will probably leave my house a little before noon on friday- i have to drive down alllll by myselfffff!!!! im not worried- i like to drive- sometimes by myself- but its just that im gonna be sad by being alone in college anyways, and then precedeing that is a 6 hour drive on some boring-ass roads... yay for music! im tired but so mentally hyper- like thinking of things to pack, do, etc.- even though theres not too much more to do- hmmmm