the sad, the work, & the worry
for no particular reason, I'm all sad this week. Is worse in the evenings. I'm lonely, for sure, which I think has been intensified by Tristan's visit last weekend. But it feels like more than just loneliness, and it's been a bitch to kick it. Got a little bump up yesterday with a free *bucks frapp, and extended the bump with a beer at the local bar. I'm back down again tonight though. I'm just so very...lackadaisical. (durr, I had to go look that up to make sure it was right.)
the workshop is going okay. My supervisor here was out of town for most of the week, so there was no physical presence to fear-motivate us. I dunno if I've gotten enough done. I did manage to teach myself python (ok it's not hard but it's nice to have under my belt), fixed three stupidlamegodforsaken bugs in this open-source project that we all use (which involved me hacking some perl code to death, ohjoy), and tested the crap out of two of our clusters. Haven't finished the lit review though and didn't have any inspirational thoughts about score interpolation. I'm just...not really sure what it is I'm supposed to be doing. I feel like I should be working harder. Or smarter. But on what? And it doesn't really seem like anyone else is, so...should I be saving my energies for later weeks? *worryworryworry*
well. 3 weeks down, 5 to go. Geez, 5 is a lot still to go. :( But I'm going home next weekend, yaaaaaaaaaaay! It is very possibly the world's most insanely short trip -- I haven't added up the hours but I think it's entirely possible that I'll actually be traveling for more hours than I will be at home. Ah well. I miss all of my friends so badly, it'll be good to see them and hang out at my house.
the workshop is going okay. My supervisor here was out of town for most of the week, so there was no physical presence to fear-motivate us. I dunno if I've gotten enough done. I did manage to teach myself python (ok it's not hard but it's nice to have under my belt), fixed three stupidlamegodforsaken bugs in this open-source project that we all use (which involved me hacking some perl code to death, ohjoy), and tested the crap out of two of our clusters. Haven't finished the lit review though and didn't have any inspirational thoughts about score interpolation. I'm just...not really sure what it is I'm supposed to be doing. I feel like I should be working harder. Or smarter. But on what? And it doesn't really seem like anyone else is, so...should I be saving my energies for later weeks? *worryworryworry*
well. 3 weeks down, 5 to go. Geez, 5 is a lot still to go. :( But I'm going home next weekend, yaaaaaaaaaaay! It is very possibly the world's most insanely short trip -- I haven't added up the hours but I think it's entirely possible that I'll actually be traveling for more hours than I will be at home. Ah well. I miss all of my friends so badly, it'll be good to see them and hang out at my house.