being much happer
Yes, finally my life has taken a toll that i really enjoy. i have not written in awhile, partly because so much had been going on in my life, and because i've been too busy to come to the library.
my mother and i are not talking anymore. and i hope that i don't really ever talk to her ever again. the woman has hurt me way to much. to wrap everything that's going on lately in a nutshell she told me "that she would rather pick her man over her kids." so whatever. that and there's a long laundry list of other shit that she's said to me.
BUT....the most excellent news is that mike and i finally moved out. we have our own place, where i can do what i want when i want and how i want. yes i have walked around naked a few times. LOL. but i still get self-concsious because of the huge windows that we have. well, i should mention that we moved to beverly hills also. j/k but it feels like it. we moved to erie shore landings A.K.A lake side ten. and it's like living in a dream. we have a workout room, a tanning room, laundry stuff, a pool, a great room to have parties, among other things. our patio is huge, bigger than the balconies so we can have a big cookout. and ya know the absolute best part? our rent is only $645 dollars, including ALL utilities. no gas bill, no electric bill, no water bill. the original price was $720, but because our apartment has some minor stains on the carpet and some appliances from the 90's, we got a beautiful discount.
things are just so nice now.
except for all the fighting with my mom. but i'm going to try to not talk to the woman.
i almost went to the nord center to see if i can have an evaluation and be put on anti-anxiety meds. i mean the things that my mom put me through almost had me convinced that it was ME that was crazy. but i realized that it's not me that's crazy, it's obviously her. she's the one marrying a complete stranger and it's her that's leaving her children for a man with no job and no prospects.
i never would ahve thought it before but my dad and i are getting along like friends and it's my mom that are at each others throat. i just don't understand. and i really don't have to room to go through everything that the woman i call mother has done to me in the past weeks.
i was supposed to go to cedar point with raquel, whom i haven't seen in ages, and my mother tricks me into saying that i'd go out with her, only to be let down by my mom and screamed at by her, and other things. i just felt so bad, about cancelling with raquel. ugh. my mom lately has been wild. i just don't know what to do about my mom.
i think that i was dragged in a different direction, because i originally started writing this in a great mood. i mean things really are looking good for me now that i'm out on my own. mike and i are doing great. (wish we would have more sex but that's beside the point) LOL!! well, i'd better stop my incessant rambling, before i write a novel!
my mother and i are not talking anymore. and i hope that i don't really ever talk to her ever again. the woman has hurt me way to much. to wrap everything that's going on lately in a nutshell she told me "that she would rather pick her man over her kids." so whatever. that and there's a long laundry list of other shit that she's said to me.
BUT....the most excellent news is that mike and i finally moved out. we have our own place, where i can do what i want when i want and how i want. yes i have walked around naked a few times. LOL. but i still get self-concsious because of the huge windows that we have. well, i should mention that we moved to beverly hills also. j/k but it feels like it. we moved to erie shore landings A.K.A lake side ten. and it's like living in a dream. we have a workout room, a tanning room, laundry stuff, a pool, a great room to have parties, among other things. our patio is huge, bigger than the balconies so we can have a big cookout. and ya know the absolute best part? our rent is only $645 dollars, including ALL utilities. no gas bill, no electric bill, no water bill. the original price was $720, but because our apartment has some minor stains on the carpet and some appliances from the 90's, we got a beautiful discount.
things are just so nice now.
except for all the fighting with my mom. but i'm going to try to not talk to the woman.
i almost went to the nord center to see if i can have an evaluation and be put on anti-anxiety meds. i mean the things that my mom put me through almost had me convinced that it was ME that was crazy. but i realized that it's not me that's crazy, it's obviously her. she's the one marrying a complete stranger and it's her that's leaving her children for a man with no job and no prospects.
i never would ahve thought it before but my dad and i are getting along like friends and it's my mom that are at each others throat. i just don't understand. and i really don't have to room to go through everything that the woman i call mother has done to me in the past weeks.
i was supposed to go to cedar point with raquel, whom i haven't seen in ages, and my mother tricks me into saying that i'd go out with her, only to be let down by my mom and screamed at by her, and other things. i just felt so bad, about cancelling with raquel. ugh. my mom lately has been wild. i just don't know what to do about my mom.
i think that i was dragged in a different direction, because i originally started writing this in a great mood. i mean things really are looking good for me now that i'm out on my own. mike and i are doing great. (wish we would have more sex but that's beside the point) LOL!! well, i'd better stop my incessant rambling, before i write a novel!