let the good times roll....yeah right
so i guess that good times can't always last. i should have known better. it's my life, and i really should have expected the shit to hit the fan sometime.
well, i'm beginning to really hate the home life. it's so bad that i would rather be at work than to be stuck with the people i live with. and that's sad because i hate work. it's just that after i get done working a 9+ hour shift i have to come home and scrub the house? i don't think so. but i do it anyways, because everyone else i live with are fucking pigs. then on top of that my mom hasn't been to work in like 2 weeks because she fell down the stairs. so now she's been harping that she needs more and moer money for rent and all of HER bills. yes, her bills. like the car and shit. like i don't have enough of my own fucking bills tp pay. AND mike overdrafted his account so being the nice girlfriend that i am, i paid HIS debt.
god, why don't i just put a bullet in my brain?
well, because i'm a wuss, i already tried to kill myself a few years ago and realized that i can beat whatever life throws at me. it's just hard.
i need to move out so bad. mike and i figured that at the end of august we'll be able to move out. money wise at least. i dunno though because we have a few big trips that we're taking. in 2 weeks it'll be our 3 year anniversary. that's kinda exciting. we're going to cedar point. last year i took mike and he had the time of his life.
so yesterday i went to lenny's and we were talking about jenn. i guess her life is kinda the pitts. they told me that she's on medicine and all this other stuff. miriam tried to put a guilt trip on me that i should be there for her. and i really should, but i haven't talked to her in such a long time now that i think it would be hard for me to even approach her. are we soo different now? i know that she's lost and needs more good people in her life, but i don't know whati can do. maybe that's why i told her we couldn't be friends anymore, because i just don't know what to say to help her. what do i do?
i guess that it hurts more than i thought to lose her as a friend.
well, i'm beginning to really hate the home life. it's so bad that i would rather be at work than to be stuck with the people i live with. and that's sad because i hate work. it's just that after i get done working a 9+ hour shift i have to come home and scrub the house? i don't think so. but i do it anyways, because everyone else i live with are fucking pigs. then on top of that my mom hasn't been to work in like 2 weeks because she fell down the stairs. so now she's been harping that she needs more and moer money for rent and all of HER bills. yes, her bills. like the car and shit. like i don't have enough of my own fucking bills tp pay. AND mike overdrafted his account so being the nice girlfriend that i am, i paid HIS debt.
god, why don't i just put a bullet in my brain?
well, because i'm a wuss, i already tried to kill myself a few years ago and realized that i can beat whatever life throws at me. it's just hard.
i need to move out so bad. mike and i figured that at the end of august we'll be able to move out. money wise at least. i dunno though because we have a few big trips that we're taking. in 2 weeks it'll be our 3 year anniversary. that's kinda exciting. we're going to cedar point. last year i took mike and he had the time of his life.
so yesterday i went to lenny's and we were talking about jenn. i guess her life is kinda the pitts. they told me that she's on medicine and all this other stuff. miriam tried to put a guilt trip on me that i should be there for her. and i really should, but i haven't talked to her in such a long time now that i think it would be hard for me to even approach her. are we soo different now? i know that she's lost and needs more good people in her life, but i don't know whati can do. maybe that's why i told her we couldn't be friends anymore, because i just don't know what to say to help her. what do i do?
i guess that it hurts more than i thought to lose her as a friend.