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ok im having such a problem remmebering what i was just gonna say. i'm really tired right now, but feel it is my obligation to make an entry because i'm sick of seeing the whole "UNDERSTAND" entry, which makes me ashamed of myself. so i'm compiling (...) a list of jkdahiehejkankhiehgk
1) I have OCD and can't stop cleaning my room. and the kitchen. and the bathroom.and teh dining room. and my sister's room.
2) i died at futures again on sunday {3 hours}, was convinced by richard to do the canton league session II, {another hour}, and became a target of the ref, who decided to give me little pointers as we played. i think she had anxiety and stress in her life. i.e there was any normal call, she puts her hands in her face : "ohh{sighhh} i dont' even know just let white take it". i sensed tears. her voice was so high that day.
3) the other day, i wanted to say something so fast while it was in my head, but it just came out as "abastabieigilf"!!..to which i proceeded to correct it by saying "jhkfeauifeh!!". thats never happened to me before.
4) later on in that class the whole class managed to stop again to listen to me crack up with myself. and mr vieira didn't stare directly at my face or anything. he never does.
5) richard's back from St. Thomas- he's wicked tan- but he cannot compete with Brick...i strongly beleive that this girl spends half her life at the tanning place. does she sleep there? cuz she is so dark it's not even funny. she is seriously a shadow.
...or should i say: I glanced over to see my once-naturally-pigmented teammate. I searched, through heart and soul, tears and laughter, to find the girl I once knew. But nothing remained. All that was left was the vague image of her sillouhette-a dark shadow representing her present and future. But the past was gone. All was gone.
did i do good?
6) caf long hour today. so anna nicole betty and me talked the whole time about a ton of stuff... so i'm writing a book to get everything down and it's gonna be a bestseller. monayyy (gay)
oh and i found a new person that ALWAYS catches me at akward moments. haha (u have to be there)
7) i decided i'm going to the senior prom so i don't have to run in states. alright
bye.