Memories of the Heart [Part 3]
Title: Memories of the Heart [Part 3]
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong [YUNJAE] and a little bit of Jaejoong/Junsu [JAESU]
Genre: romance, smut
Rating: PG-13 for this chapter
Summary: "Chapter 3: The Confession" Jaejoong struggles in his first day of school when he learns of somethings he never expected...
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With a loud bang, Yunho felt his back hit the cold floor. he yelped in pain of the fall but tightened his hug to Jae. He had to make sure that the fragile-looking angel was not hurt. Yunho felt Jae's hands press on his chest as he held Jae in his arms. He could also smell Jae's intoxicating vanilla scent rush in his nostrils and it made him shiver. With Jae close to his arms, Yunho felt a slight bulge nudging his thighs and realized it was Jae's throbbing member. Damn, he thought as he felt himself grow strong down there.
"Jae, are you alright?" Yunho caught himself and finally whispered. He got no reply but felt the boy in his arms shudder.
"Jae?" Yunho said louder now and sat Jae and himself up. He squared Jae's fragile shoulders and asked more concerned now, "Jae?". Still no reply. Oh my god, what have i done? Yunho asked himself as he shook, trying to coax an answer from Jae who was silently shuddering, face buried down the floor.
After a while, Jae lifted his head and looked at him. Yunho saw Jae's eyes filled to the brim with tears. The picture of the teary-eyed Jae sent a nonsensical feeling to Yunho's chest. Was it pity? Guilt? Or was it pain?
"Oh Jae! I'm so sorry! Are you hurt anywhere?" he asked
"Yun...Yunho... What....are you....talking about?... I should be the one asking you that. I'm... I'm so sorry..." Jae said in between his sobs. As he watched the beautiful boy cry, Yunho felt a sensation he was alien to. He felt the strongest urge to kiss the boy, to reassure that nothing needed to be sorry for, that it wasn't his fault. Seeing Jae cry made Yunho feel uncomfortable... Why am I feeling this? Why now? Why him? he thought.
"If I would have been more careful you wouldn't have..."Jae trailed and sobbed again.
That's it, I can't stand this anymore, Yunho thought as he reached for Jae. He hugged Jae tightly, as if trying to reassure him. "Jae, you don't need to apologize" he whispered to the other now. "No one was hurt." he lied. "See?" Yunho said as he jumped and stood up, to reassure Jae and calm him down. A moment later, he ducked as a strong pang of pain surged from his left shoulder.
"See you're not!" Jae said as he too stood up
"No I'm fine really, I just..." Yunho said and was quickly cut off
"No. Please stop making me feel better and let me take you to the nurse's station. It's the least I can do" Jae said. furtive about his request. Even though he looked authoritative, Yunho still sensed, perhaps the pain, that showed in Jae's eyes. Yunho sighed, "Oh ok." he resigned.
"Ok, come along now." Jae said as he neared Yunho and carried him by the shoulders. Yunho felt Jae exert effort as he tried to tug him. He even heard Jae holding his breath, as if building up momentum but to no avail. Jae tried one more time before he stopped and exhaled. Yunho turned and saw sweat trickle down from Jae's adorable face. He was surprised to see that Jae puckered his red lips and started poutingm, a gesture that sent weird sensations of pleasure to Yunho's mind. "This is gonna be harder than I thought..." Yunho heard Jae whisper to himself. With that, Yunho's lips curved into a smile.
"Yunho?" Jae turned to him, his face slightly confused and bewildered by his smile.
"Jae, you can ask for help, if I'm too heavy for you." he replied as he chuckled
"I'm fine. I can handle you, you'll see..." Jae replied confidently as he tried again to move Yunho. Jae tried all his might and sweat really hard.
"See, you can't." Yunho said as he patted Jae's shoulder. "Now, just ask for help and leave me here. I should be fine"
"But..." Jae tried to reason but was immediately cut-off.
"Really Jae. I will be fine. Just go ask help. I'll wait for you right here by the foyer's steps" Yunho said as he sat down and smiled at Jae. He felt an overpowering sting of gladness when he saw Jae's face turn as red as tomato
"Oh...O...OK..." Jae stuttered as he turned his back from Yunho. Jae slapped himself mentally for blushing in front of Yunho and made it through the signage that pointed to the hallways
How cute can that boy get? Yunho thought as he watched Jae's back disappear from his view.
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Aish, why did I have to be so careless? Jae snapped to himself as he slowly made it through the corridors. Where should I go? I don't even know a single soul out here, Jae thought to himself. Just then he saw a familiar face coming out from a classroom door, face sullen and lonely.
"Junsu~ah!" He called out as his best friend looked at him, surprised.
"Jae?" Junsu asked as he felt Jae's hands looking him by the waist, clearly puzzled by his friend's appearance to the third year lobby. "What are you doing here? You're supposed to be in your room, the first period has started now!" Junsu said as he pushed his friend back. He saw how puffy Jae's eyes had been and felt guilty. Maybe he cried because of our fight, he thought. "Jae, about what happened earlier this morning" Junsu started as he let go of Jae and scratched his scalp. "I was out of line, and I never should have said those things, I'm really s-" he was cut off
"No, Junsu~ah! I should say sorry. I should have told you about that dream. I'm sorry if I made you feel unappreciated" Jae said as he looked his friend in the eye. "But hyung, that's really not the reason why I came here" Jae said as he looked down
"Huh? So why are you here then?" Junsu asked as he bended down, trying to look at Jae's face fixed to the ground.
Like an adorable innocent puppy, Jae flashed his beautiful eyes and clasped his hands "Junsu~hyung, I hurt somebody and I need to take him to the school nurse. Please help me, he's too heavy for me!" Jae said and clung to Junsu's arms, " Please hyung! Please?"
"I leave you for an hour and you cause mayhem, Aish! How reckless can you be?" Junsu remarked as he pinched his friend's cheek.
"Yah, that hurts!" Jae said and pouted. Junsu saw this and was mesmerized. How cute can you get, Joongie?, he thought. "Fine I'll help you"
"Really? Hyung, you are the best!" Jae squeeled and actioned to hug his friend but was surprised when Junsu evaded. "Only in one condition" He heard Junsu negotiate.
"Ok, what is it?" Jae said and wondered.
"Promise me, we'll never fight again?"
"Ok, I promise. Can we go now? Jae said as he remembered Yunho
"And please don't use the innocent puppy look to anyone else but me? You'll dazzle demons, you know?" Junsu said as they started walking.
"Hey, that's two conditions already, no fair" Jae said as he led the way "I'll dazzle anyone I want to!" Jae said as he stuck his tongue to Junsu
"Don't say I didn't warn you?" Junsu said as he giggled on their way to stairs.
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This is so wrong, Jae thought as he, Junsu, and Yunho, who was carried between Jae and Junsu, silently made their way to the nurse's office. Jae did not expect this to happen. It all started when he and Junsu arrived at the stairs. When Jae introduced Yunho as his 'victim' to Junsu, his best friend and his new friend looked at each other with furious gazes. Although no one ever said anything after that, Jae somehow sensed that they had known each other and were not really friends. He was shocked to see how furious his best friend was when he saw him glare at Yunho and was even more surprised the angry look on Yunho's lovely face as he looked at Junsu. And now, here they were, awkwardly moving to the not so far clinic door. What's up with these two? Jae thought as he pouted.
"Mrs. Webb, we have an injured nobody here! Please help us" Junsu called out when they made it through the doors.
"Nobody?" Jae and Yunho chorused, both angry at the appropriate name. What's up with you? Jae thought mentally, as if trying to send telepathically his anger at his friend.
"Oh dear, come along inside" an old woman said, whom Jae presumed to be the nurse. "You two can go now" she said as she sat Yunho down into a wheel chair.
"Please take care of him?" Jae pleaded the nurse with such a pitiful look in his eyes
"Oh sure will do, honey" the nurse replied, surprised at the boys' beauty
"Jae, we need to talk." Junsu said as he dragged Jae out of the clinic, Jae struggling to let go.
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Junsu could feel his blood rushing as he dragged Jae outside the clinic.
He could hear both Jae and his own thought screaming at him. When they were finally out, Jae screamed and complained, " That hurt, pabo!"
"Jae, I thought I was clear about this. I thought you got it. How could you trust that person?" Junsu thought. How could you trust that felon I had a fight with last year?, his thoughts added
" Junsu! It's not like everyone's a bad guy or anything..." Jae said as he looked at his friend with brows furrowing.
"Oh yeah, How can you be so sure? What if he turns out to be your stalker, huh? What if he turns to be a rapist, seducing you? What if he's..." Junsu continued but was shocked at Jae's face, so red in frustration.
"Junsu, what makes you think that he's bad? What if he's good? What if he was the only one who cared to take me to my first day in school when others bail out on me for reasons I don't know why?" Jae said, now crying. "What if he's the only one who cared about my feelings today and stayed and talked to me when all I could ever think of was bursting from all the weird glances people were giving me? What if he's the only one who cared enough to be with me when I felt all alone and so scared?" Jae said furiously as he was crying.
Seeing Jae cry sent tears to Junsu's eyes. He never thought Jae was so scared like this. Ever since Jae recovered, but still with memories lost, from the mauling incident ten years ago, Jae found it so hard to be thrown into a crowd of other people, let alone people of his age. He found being new to an environment so scary that when Jae heard that he'd have to be transfered to St. Charles this school year in lieu of his parent's request, it took Junsu about a month to convince Jae everything would be alright. But, Junsu never thought he'd felt this way...This way extremely.
In a blink of an eye, Junsu grabbed the crying Jae and held him tight in his arms. Jae was sofly punching his chest but then resigned and hugged back. When he heard that Jae was sober now, he grabbed his friends chin and, much to both of their surprise, pecked Jae's lips for an intimate kiss. Junsu felt his friend struggle and then let go. He was shocked to see Jae's eyes wide in shock.
"Jae, I'm so sorry, I didin't mean to intrude like that" Junsu apologized to the dumbstruck Jae.
"J...Junsu~hyung, Wh...Why did you do that?" Jae said as he blanlky stared and touched his lips and started to cry again...
"Jae!" Junsu said, as he tried to grab him by the hand
"WHY?" he said more loudly now and was shocked to hear Junsu answer even before he could finish.
"IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!. I ALWAYS HAVE, EVER SINCE WE WERE TEN! I LOVE YOU!" Junsu said as hard as he could just as the clinic door came to a close. Jae and Junsu himself, too shocked at the sudden confession, that neither noticed Yunho coming out of the door, hearing all of what has been said.
Jae was shocked but then reached to hug his friend. He whispered to him, "Junsu I don't know what to say... but...I...don't.."
"Please don't say anything. I just said it and i don't really expect a reply" Junsu whispered back. "I'm sorry if this made you feel awkward but I just had to let that out" he continued
The two backed up and detached each other's body from the other's.
"Ok, then, see you tonight? The usual?" Junsu said as he started going back to the third year lobby.
"Later" Jae replied as he sighed and turned back to the clinic door but later bumped into something. He was shocked to see when Yunho stood there in front of him and looked at him, with a weird expression.
"Yunho?"
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong [YUNJAE] and a little bit of Jaejoong/Junsu [JAESU]
Genre: romance, smut
Rating: PG-13 for this chapter
Summary: "Chapter 3: The Confession" Jaejoong struggles in his first day of school when he learns of somethings he never expected...
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With a loud bang, Yunho felt his back hit the cold floor. he yelped in pain of the fall but tightened his hug to Jae. He had to make sure that the fragile-looking angel was not hurt. Yunho felt Jae's hands press on his chest as he held Jae in his arms. He could also smell Jae's intoxicating vanilla scent rush in his nostrils and it made him shiver. With Jae close to his arms, Yunho felt a slight bulge nudging his thighs and realized it was Jae's throbbing member. Damn, he thought as he felt himself grow strong down there.
"Jae, are you alright?" Yunho caught himself and finally whispered. He got no reply but felt the boy in his arms shudder.
"Jae?" Yunho said louder now and sat Jae and himself up. He squared Jae's fragile shoulders and asked more concerned now, "Jae?". Still no reply. Oh my god, what have i done? Yunho asked himself as he shook, trying to coax an answer from Jae who was silently shuddering, face buried down the floor.
After a while, Jae lifted his head and looked at him. Yunho saw Jae's eyes filled to the brim with tears. The picture of the teary-eyed Jae sent a nonsensical feeling to Yunho's chest. Was it pity? Guilt? Or was it pain?
"Oh Jae! I'm so sorry! Are you hurt anywhere?" he asked
"Yun...Yunho... What....are you....talking about?... I should be the one asking you that. I'm... I'm so sorry..." Jae said in between his sobs. As he watched the beautiful boy cry, Yunho felt a sensation he was alien to. He felt the strongest urge to kiss the boy, to reassure that nothing needed to be sorry for, that it wasn't his fault. Seeing Jae cry made Yunho feel uncomfortable... Why am I feeling this? Why now? Why him? he thought.
"If I would have been more careful you wouldn't have..."Jae trailed and sobbed again.
That's it, I can't stand this anymore, Yunho thought as he reached for Jae. He hugged Jae tightly, as if trying to reassure him. "Jae, you don't need to apologize" he whispered to the other now. "No one was hurt." he lied. "See?" Yunho said as he jumped and stood up, to reassure Jae and calm him down. A moment later, he ducked as a strong pang of pain surged from his left shoulder.
"See you're not!" Jae said as he too stood up
"No I'm fine really, I just..." Yunho said and was quickly cut off
"No. Please stop making me feel better and let me take you to the nurse's station. It's the least I can do" Jae said. furtive about his request. Even though he looked authoritative, Yunho still sensed, perhaps the pain, that showed in Jae's eyes. Yunho sighed, "Oh ok." he resigned.
"Ok, come along now." Jae said as he neared Yunho and carried him by the shoulders. Yunho felt Jae exert effort as he tried to tug him. He even heard Jae holding his breath, as if building up momentum but to no avail. Jae tried one more time before he stopped and exhaled. Yunho turned and saw sweat trickle down from Jae's adorable face. He was surprised to see that Jae puckered his red lips and started poutingm, a gesture that sent weird sensations of pleasure to Yunho's mind. "This is gonna be harder than I thought..." Yunho heard Jae whisper to himself. With that, Yunho's lips curved into a smile.
"Yunho?" Jae turned to him, his face slightly confused and bewildered by his smile.
"Jae, you can ask for help, if I'm too heavy for you." he replied as he chuckled
"I'm fine. I can handle you, you'll see..." Jae replied confidently as he tried again to move Yunho. Jae tried all his might and sweat really hard.
"See, you can't." Yunho said as he patted Jae's shoulder. "Now, just ask for help and leave me here. I should be fine"
"But..." Jae tried to reason but was immediately cut-off.
"Really Jae. I will be fine. Just go ask help. I'll wait for you right here by the foyer's steps" Yunho said as he sat down and smiled at Jae. He felt an overpowering sting of gladness when he saw Jae's face turn as red as tomato
"Oh...O...OK..." Jae stuttered as he turned his back from Yunho. Jae slapped himself mentally for blushing in front of Yunho and made it through the signage that pointed to the hallways
How cute can that boy get? Yunho thought as he watched Jae's back disappear from his view.
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Aish, why did I have to be so careless? Jae snapped to himself as he slowly made it through the corridors. Where should I go? I don't even know a single soul out here, Jae thought to himself. Just then he saw a familiar face coming out from a classroom door, face sullen and lonely.
"Junsu~ah!" He called out as his best friend looked at him, surprised.
"Jae?" Junsu asked as he felt Jae's hands looking him by the waist, clearly puzzled by his friend's appearance to the third year lobby. "What are you doing here? You're supposed to be in your room, the first period has started now!" Junsu said as he pushed his friend back. He saw how puffy Jae's eyes had been and felt guilty. Maybe he cried because of our fight, he thought. "Jae, about what happened earlier this morning" Junsu started as he let go of Jae and scratched his scalp. "I was out of line, and I never should have said those things, I'm really s-" he was cut off
"No, Junsu~ah! I should say sorry. I should have told you about that dream. I'm sorry if I made you feel unappreciated" Jae said as he looked his friend in the eye. "But hyung, that's really not the reason why I came here" Jae said as he looked down
"Huh? So why are you here then?" Junsu asked as he bended down, trying to look at Jae's face fixed to the ground.
Like an adorable innocent puppy, Jae flashed his beautiful eyes and clasped his hands "Junsu~hyung, I hurt somebody and I need to take him to the school nurse. Please help me, he's too heavy for me!" Jae said and clung to Junsu's arms, " Please hyung! Please?"
"I leave you for an hour and you cause mayhem, Aish! How reckless can you be?" Junsu remarked as he pinched his friend's cheek.
"Yah, that hurts!" Jae said and pouted. Junsu saw this and was mesmerized. How cute can you get, Joongie?, he thought. "Fine I'll help you"
"Really? Hyung, you are the best!" Jae squeeled and actioned to hug his friend but was surprised when Junsu evaded. "Only in one condition" He heard Junsu negotiate.
"Ok, what is it?" Jae said and wondered.
"Promise me, we'll never fight again?"
"Ok, I promise. Can we go now? Jae said as he remembered Yunho
"And please don't use the innocent puppy look to anyone else but me? You'll dazzle demons, you know?" Junsu said as they started walking.
"Hey, that's two conditions already, no fair" Jae said as he led the way "I'll dazzle anyone I want to!" Jae said as he stuck his tongue to Junsu
"Don't say I didn't warn you?" Junsu said as he giggled on their way to stairs.
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This is so wrong, Jae thought as he, Junsu, and Yunho, who was carried between Jae and Junsu, silently made their way to the nurse's office. Jae did not expect this to happen. It all started when he and Junsu arrived at the stairs. When Jae introduced Yunho as his 'victim' to Junsu, his best friend and his new friend looked at each other with furious gazes. Although no one ever said anything after that, Jae somehow sensed that they had known each other and were not really friends. He was shocked to see how furious his best friend was when he saw him glare at Yunho and was even more surprised the angry look on Yunho's lovely face as he looked at Junsu. And now, here they were, awkwardly moving to the not so far clinic door. What's up with these two? Jae thought as he pouted.
"Mrs. Webb, we have an injured nobody here! Please help us" Junsu called out when they made it through the doors.
"Nobody?" Jae and Yunho chorused, both angry at the appropriate name. What's up with you? Jae thought mentally, as if trying to send telepathically his anger at his friend.
"Oh dear, come along inside" an old woman said, whom Jae presumed to be the nurse. "You two can go now" she said as she sat Yunho down into a wheel chair.
"Please take care of him?" Jae pleaded the nurse with such a pitiful look in his eyes
"Oh sure will do, honey" the nurse replied, surprised at the boys' beauty
"Jae, we need to talk." Junsu said as he dragged Jae out of the clinic, Jae struggling to let go.
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Junsu could feel his blood rushing as he dragged Jae outside the clinic.
He could hear both Jae and his own thought screaming at him. When they were finally out, Jae screamed and complained, " That hurt, pabo!"
"Jae, I thought I was clear about this. I thought you got it. How could you trust that person?" Junsu thought. How could you trust that felon I had a fight with last year?, his thoughts added
" Junsu! It's not like everyone's a bad guy or anything..." Jae said as he looked at his friend with brows furrowing.
"Oh yeah, How can you be so sure? What if he turns out to be your stalker, huh? What if he turns to be a rapist, seducing you? What if he's..." Junsu continued but was shocked at Jae's face, so red in frustration.
"Junsu, what makes you think that he's bad? What if he's good? What if he was the only one who cared to take me to my first day in school when others bail out on me for reasons I don't know why?" Jae said, now crying. "What if he's the only one who cared about my feelings today and stayed and talked to me when all I could ever think of was bursting from all the weird glances people were giving me? What if he's the only one who cared enough to be with me when I felt all alone and so scared?" Jae said furiously as he was crying.
Seeing Jae cry sent tears to Junsu's eyes. He never thought Jae was so scared like this. Ever since Jae recovered, but still with memories lost, from the mauling incident ten years ago, Jae found it so hard to be thrown into a crowd of other people, let alone people of his age. He found being new to an environment so scary that when Jae heard that he'd have to be transfered to St. Charles this school year in lieu of his parent's request, it took Junsu about a month to convince Jae everything would be alright. But, Junsu never thought he'd felt this way...This way extremely.
In a blink of an eye, Junsu grabbed the crying Jae and held him tight in his arms. Jae was sofly punching his chest but then resigned and hugged back. When he heard that Jae was sober now, he grabbed his friends chin and, much to both of their surprise, pecked Jae's lips for an intimate kiss. Junsu felt his friend struggle and then let go. He was shocked to see Jae's eyes wide in shock.
"Jae, I'm so sorry, I didin't mean to intrude like that" Junsu apologized to the dumbstruck Jae.
"J...Junsu~hyung, Wh...Why did you do that?" Jae said as he blanlky stared and touched his lips and started to cry again...
"Jae!" Junsu said, as he tried to grab him by the hand
"WHY?" he said more loudly now and was shocked to hear Junsu answer even before he could finish.
"IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!. I ALWAYS HAVE, EVER SINCE WE WERE TEN! I LOVE YOU!" Junsu said as hard as he could just as the clinic door came to a close. Jae and Junsu himself, too shocked at the sudden confession, that neither noticed Yunho coming out of the door, hearing all of what has been said.
Jae was shocked but then reached to hug his friend. He whispered to him, "Junsu I don't know what to say... but...I...don't.."
"Please don't say anything. I just said it and i don't really expect a reply" Junsu whispered back. "I'm sorry if this made you feel awkward but I just had to let that out" he continued
The two backed up and detached each other's body from the other's.
"Ok, then, see you tonight? The usual?" Junsu said as he started going back to the third year lobby.
"Later" Jae replied as he sighed and turned back to the clinic door but later bumped into something. He was shocked to see when Yunho stood there in front of him and looked at him, with a weird expression.
"Yunho?"