Thursday
Well not much to say except that I am working for Domino's right now. Not to bad the guys are really cool that work there. Especially Big steve little steve and garrett. I enjoy working with them. I'm not to happy that its Domino's but its better than nothing at the moment.
Caleb and I are doing well... not to much to complain about other than that he chose to work on a computer tonight rather than spend time with me. I don't want to say anything to him because he enjoys doing that sorta thing. I do feel bad when I want him to spend time rather than doing something else thats either equally or more important than spending that time with me. I want him to spend time with me, I want us to spend time together... but I have to understand that I can't take up all his time regardless of how lonely I feel or how alone I am. Its not so hard during the evening because we are together but its worse during the day... I am not used to having the daytime to myself and all I have to do is think. No one is around they are all at work so what do I do. I think. I think about everything... then it all comes to thinking about being alone... Its not to good. I have movies and I take walks but again I am walking by myself and I am watching movies by myself. I think I've watched "The Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood" everyday and every night for the last week. I guess being alone is what I do best so I should just suck it up and deal with it.
We had our first pre-marital counseling session this past Monday, it went well. Pastor Reid wanted to know a lot about me. It was kinda weird at first but then I got comfortable. We have homework assignments our first one is to ask each set of parents why they are blessing this marriage. I've told my dad but not my mom yet and Caleb and I have already discussed it with Lenny and Grace. They have no problem with doing it. I am pretty curious and interested to see what they write. I better get to read it! LOL.. Well thats all for now...a lot more said than I thought...
Caleb and I are doing well... not to much to complain about other than that he chose to work on a computer tonight rather than spend time with me. I don't want to say anything to him because he enjoys doing that sorta thing. I do feel bad when I want him to spend time rather than doing something else thats either equally or more important than spending that time with me. I want him to spend time with me, I want us to spend time together... but I have to understand that I can't take up all his time regardless of how lonely I feel or how alone I am. Its not so hard during the evening because we are together but its worse during the day... I am not used to having the daytime to myself and all I have to do is think. No one is around they are all at work so what do I do. I think. I think about everything... then it all comes to thinking about being alone... Its not to good. I have movies and I take walks but again I am walking by myself and I am watching movies by myself. I think I've watched "The Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood" everyday and every night for the last week. I guess being alone is what I do best so I should just suck it up and deal with it.
We had our first pre-marital counseling session this past Monday, it went well. Pastor Reid wanted to know a lot about me. It was kinda weird at first but then I got comfortable. We have homework assignments our first one is to ask each set of parents why they are blessing this marriage. I've told my dad but not my mom yet and Caleb and I have already discussed it with Lenny and Grace. They have no problem with doing it. I am pretty curious and interested to see what they write. I better get to read it! LOL.. Well thats all for now...a lot more said than I thought...