death is only a wish
ok so everyone is afraid to talk to me cuz of how i am feeling/talkin right now so i gotta vent somehow... ashlee is fuckin pissed at me, and im sure she will never wanna c me again so i can leave her life forever, i cried for the first time today since i was in elementry school, i busted a blood vessle pucnhin the door.. and the only i thing i really care to do is die, ive never felt this bad in my life, my mom and dad thought i was serously gunna kill myself, i just laid in bed for 5 or 6 hrs just stareing into space then just heard the endless words of my parents trying to cheer me up and i just dont know what to do. i just wish things was like they were