FUCK BOYS!
Well last night wasnt the best night ever....its had its good moments....but the shitty moments made all of the good moments dissappear! My day started off bad enough...i was stuck working on Easter...first time i ever missed the traditional Lake Parker picnic wiith the familia! So that sucked...then i was able to go home at 5 just in time to eat the scraps left over from the Easter lunch! :( I felt like a homeless cat eating someones old Taco Bell that was thrown away in the dump! *Ok so that was a bit of an exageration but the feeling was defanately there* After that i went over to Kiki & Mandys so we could head out to good ol' Ted's Hideaway! So we went to the bar and everything was going good...getting my drink on and all. Well i called Travis because he wanted me to call him when i got there so i did....and he didnt answer. So I call my buddy Matt O because he wanted me to call him when i got to Ted's too...so i did. Well Matt came up there but didnt even talk to me...hes mad at me for something but he wont tell me what it is...so that problem is still un resolved. But the night got much much worse. I finally call Travis again and he told me to go over there...so i make my way out there with Kiki as my DD and Derrick following her so she could go do her own thing, i got there at like 1:00AM and i dont remember exactly what words were said or what happened...but basically he hurt my feelings by saying something along the lines of "im not looking for a relationship" ....which really hurt because just a few days ago he and i were talking and i made a comment about how i was scared and didnt want to move to fast because i wasnt looking for any type of relationship...and he then said he wasnt either but that there was just something about me he liked so much, that he was ready to take it to the next level...so there i was ready to take it to the next level because every word he said seemed to genuine...well apparently i think i was nothing more than a (attempt) booty call...therefore my heart was hurting because stupid little Kasey was falling for Travis believeing that his intentions were good.....so i called kiki to come pick me up ASAP because i was so wasted there was no way i could drive and so frustrated because i felt like i had been dumped even though Travis and I were nothing official...so i peaced the fuck out with Kiki and Derrick. Kiki drove my car, and i rode with Derrick. Well Travis hurt my feelings so bad that i couldnt help but to cry. So there i was, riding down the rode balling my eyes out to the point where Derrick pulled over so that i could let all of my feelings out. *im actually really embarassed about it today, but hey liquor makes you say your true feelings as opposed to being sober where you keep it all in* So after all of that, we went back to Jesse's apartment and i decided to send Travis a text, and this is exactly what it said....:"Hey, i dont know what to do, because you tell me that you want to take things to the next level but then its like you come up with some type of an excuse to change your mind ..just dont lead me on and just let me know before i get hurt i like you and you need to just call me and let me know whats going on in your head!"......and that was it! Well he never called back or wrote back..so im so sad and confused at this point.....i shall announce it to the world....boys fuckin suck! Holla!