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today i have been feeling all up and down
and the current feeling is down.
fuck this, all of it.
french homework
ear training assignments i can't even FIND online
and driving all the way to gorham for a shitty orchestra rehearsal
and not composing anything for composers ensemble.
because i don't know how.
did you know that "forte" (as in, "reading hebrew is my forte") is actually pronounced "fort", without any emphasis on the E?
learned that in sight singing class.
christiansen. smart guy.
i like school.
but at the same time i hate it. every semester, things just get into this whirlwind and i do too much adn i get behind and overwhelmed and i start to hate it. but i know if i wasn't ins chool, i'd be so bored and hate not being there. so it's a lose-lose situation. in an ideal world, i could take just a few classes at once and enjoy learning, because i do enjoy learning. but i don't learn anything when i only have time to do minimal work to get by.
i'm so overwhelmed today. i just want to lie down and cry, a lot.
and the current feeling is down.
fuck this, all of it.
french homework
ear training assignments i can't even FIND online
and driving all the way to gorham for a shitty orchestra rehearsal
and not composing anything for composers ensemble.
because i don't know how.
did you know that "forte" (as in, "reading hebrew is my forte") is actually pronounced "fort", without any emphasis on the E?
learned that in sight singing class.
christiansen. smart guy.
i like school.
but at the same time i hate it. every semester, things just get into this whirlwind and i do too much adn i get behind and overwhelmed and i start to hate it. but i know if i wasn't ins chool, i'd be so bored and hate not being there. so it's a lose-lose situation. in an ideal world, i could take just a few classes at once and enjoy learning, because i do enjoy learning. but i don't learn anything when i only have time to do minimal work to get by.
i'm so overwhelmed today. i just want to lie down and cry, a lot.