Will this pain ever stop??
Come on now.. It seems like I have been making a fool out of myself. Everytime I talk to him, I'm considered a drama queen or something. WTF? How do I bring this upon me? I dont consider myself a drama queen, I consider myself a sensitive person. And everytime someone says something not so appealing to me, I freak out. Maybe its because I care about the person who is saying it. Like everything that comes out of his mouth, has an effect on me. After he says it, I get upset.. & Im not only upset for 5 minutes after.. it's actually like pretty much the whole day after. I cant help it. I cant help that I am pushing him away from me further and further. Just because of things he says. Last night he said something about junkies. I completely took sides with the fact E isnt a junkie. Because he is not. Im not gunna let someone say something that isnt even true. Of course, it made me look like I was sticking up for E because I still wanted to be w/ him. Thats not the case. I broke up with E. I dont wanna be with E.
When I talk to him, he always wants me to hangout. Its really never a good time for it. I always have to babysit the next morning or work or go to school. I cant help that. I like to work and I have to go to school. I will never stop doing those things. Last week, Thursday, I was supposed to meet them somewhere. I never got a call from him but he said they called. Whatever actually happened, turnsout we never hungout. I havent even seen him like a month. But somehow, everytime we make plans to hangout, they never happen.
Ahhh.. well Im tired of writing about this.. Most likely I will continue writing where I left off later on tonight. But for now, Im out of here!
Much love,
*Katie*
When I talk to him, he always wants me to hangout. Its really never a good time for it. I always have to babysit the next morning or work or go to school. I cant help that. I like to work and I have to go to school. I will never stop doing those things. Last week, Thursday, I was supposed to meet them somewhere. I never got a call from him but he said they called. Whatever actually happened, turnsout we never hungout. I havent even seen him like a month. But somehow, everytime we make plans to hangout, they never happen.
Ahhh.. well Im tired of writing about this.. Most likely I will continue writing where I left off later on tonight. But for now, Im out of here!
Much love,
*Katie*