My heart is in San Antonio
My heart officially left me today.
I know its so very melodramatic of me to say that but its true. The one person that truly understand my many neurouses and supports me in my many times of self-doubt had to leave me. Brian will be at Basic Military Training at Lackland Air Force Base until 19 October. It really does suck. I know that I'm going to be the one of us that hurts more about this unfortunate separation. Brian will have most important things to worry about. I know he will kick ass at training, and get back into his AF groove. I just don't do separation well, and I can pretty much only write him letters for the next six week. Truly though, this is all is for the best. Brian will have a guaranteed career that he will like, relatively speaking. He loves the AF and if he gets the "action" role he wants, he will be content.
If I am angry or overly sensitive for some reason over the next few weeks, this is why. I know I'm strong and I'll be fine. I just have a whole less of a bullshit tolerance, because just about the only person who can truly calm me down is hundreds of miles away.
First SW meeting was today. I think it went pretty well. I think everyone is still is in semester shock. I am just drowning in stuff. For all my pre-preparing, I am still caught off guard by how quickly things are progressing. Sometimes I seriously just want to dive under the covers til Christmas.
Ok, I gotta a 7:30 class, so I'm soon off to bed.
G'night
I know its so very melodramatic of me to say that but its true. The one person that truly understand my many neurouses and supports me in my many times of self-doubt had to leave me. Brian will be at Basic Military Training at Lackland Air Force Base until 19 October. It really does suck. I know that I'm going to be the one of us that hurts more about this unfortunate separation. Brian will have most important things to worry about. I know he will kick ass at training, and get back into his AF groove. I just don't do separation well, and I can pretty much only write him letters for the next six week. Truly though, this is all is for the best. Brian will have a guaranteed career that he will like, relatively speaking. He loves the AF and if he gets the "action" role he wants, he will be content.
If I am angry or overly sensitive for some reason over the next few weeks, this is why. I know I'm strong and I'll be fine. I just have a whole less of a bullshit tolerance, because just about the only person who can truly calm me down is hundreds of miles away.
First SW meeting was today. I think it went pretty well. I think everyone is still is in semester shock. I am just drowning in stuff. For all my pre-preparing, I am still caught off guard by how quickly things are progressing. Sometimes I seriously just want to dive under the covers til Christmas.
Ok, I gotta a 7:30 class, so I'm soon off to bed.
G'night