The Year in Review
My first year of college is finally ended...and its kinda said to say the least...im going to miss being one of the new people on campus...but then again im going to like being the older, wiser person on campus next year...
as i look at my entire year in review, i must say it kinda sucked...
my best friend dies
heart stuck between two boys....
my aunt dies
separate AC joint in shoulder
break hand
fracture foot
bad grades
boyfriend breaks up with me after i tell him i love him....that was interesting, and heartbreaking...
stupid is as stupid does...and so stupid me does stupid things...
cuzin dies
MIP
bad grades
Cancun, get sick and in hospital
RUMORS, that somehow keep following me wherever i go...make life a living hell...
Hospital...allergic reaction to some meds i take...
Hopefullee, nothing else happens within these last two weeks...er one week and two days....because i think if i pulled anymore hair out of my head, then i would be bald, lol...
I guess that i am not going to lie...this year had made me open my eyes to a lot of things...that no matter how hard you try to please people, in the end it doesnt matter...that people can be and are fake to you...that you must keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer or youll drown at this school....that people that you think are your friends, really might not be...people that you thought would never turn their back on you can and will...you are your own worst enemy...an error does not become a mistake until you refuse to fix it...if you mess up, you CAN pick yourself up and try again...there are real, true friends out there waiting for you....
If I could take back ONE thing that I did this year it would be: dating two guys at the same time
One thing that I am glad that happened this year: Ryan
I havent completely forgiven myself for all the mistakes that i made this year. i mean, i used to be such a different person....such a good person, didnt really drink, or have sex, got perfect grades, was in NHS, graduated top ten of my class, all district soccer player, all conference basketball player....just an over all academic/athletic perfect daughter...never got into any trouble...and so forth...this year has shown me that trying to be perfect is a LOT harder in the real world than it is in high school...i have fallen so many times this year, that i am NOT going to deny, i didnt WANT to ever get back up again...to me, not only have i become this ugly horrible person that i promised myself i would never be, i have failed not only myself, but friends, my family, and God... next year will be different, a fresh start...and i will not fall...i will be strong...
CANT WAIT TO MOVE IN WITJ MY GURLIES FOR THE SUMMER!
as i look at my entire year in review, i must say it kinda sucked...
my best friend dies
heart stuck between two boys....
my aunt dies
separate AC joint in shoulder
break hand
fracture foot
bad grades
boyfriend breaks up with me after i tell him i love him....that was interesting, and heartbreaking...
stupid is as stupid does...and so stupid me does stupid things...
cuzin dies
MIP
bad grades
Cancun, get sick and in hospital
RUMORS, that somehow keep following me wherever i go...make life a living hell...
Hospital...allergic reaction to some meds i take...
Hopefullee, nothing else happens within these last two weeks...er one week and two days....because i think if i pulled anymore hair out of my head, then i would be bald, lol...
I guess that i am not going to lie...this year had made me open my eyes to a lot of things...that no matter how hard you try to please people, in the end it doesnt matter...that people can be and are fake to you...that you must keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer or youll drown at this school....that people that you think are your friends, really might not be...people that you thought would never turn their back on you can and will...you are your own worst enemy...an error does not become a mistake until you refuse to fix it...if you mess up, you CAN pick yourself up and try again...there are real, true friends out there waiting for you....
If I could take back ONE thing that I did this year it would be: dating two guys at the same time
One thing that I am glad that happened this year: Ryan
I havent completely forgiven myself for all the mistakes that i made this year. i mean, i used to be such a different person....such a good person, didnt really drink, or have sex, got perfect grades, was in NHS, graduated top ten of my class, all district soccer player, all conference basketball player....just an over all academic/athletic perfect daughter...never got into any trouble...and so forth...this year has shown me that trying to be perfect is a LOT harder in the real world than it is in high school...i have fallen so many times this year, that i am NOT going to deny, i didnt WANT to ever get back up again...to me, not only have i become this ugly horrible person that i promised myself i would never be, i have failed not only myself, but friends, my family, and God... next year will be different, a fresh start...and i will not fall...i will be strong...
CANT WAIT TO MOVE IN WITJ MY GURLIES FOR THE SUMMER!