Be ready for a long, serious post
Today wasn't really that great work wise. I am still working at Riverview and I will be leaving for Wal-Mart next week, but today was just bad. I come in to work to find out I am training a person who has been there for like a month and she isn't exactly the smartest person at all. I was cool with it though and I trained her to the best of my ability so that she could finally know how to do position 3 on her own. Things were going fine until we started cleaning trucks and she started to get impatient with how slow someone was. She decided to help this other girl do position 2 instead of get trained by me, which was what she was supposed to do from what the schedule said. I tell her "That's not what you should be doing, you should be training with me". Then she replies with We won't be getting out at 8pm with this girl being so slow. I said in an assertive voice "Look" and I was about to tell her something until she says don't raise your voice at me! and then leaves for a smoke. I was so pissed off that I wanted to tell her off really bad but instead I apoligized for raising my voice and told her that the other girl had to get better at her position of work and she STILL did not understand. FUCK THAT NOISE! I did not say anything else that night to her except goodbye because I did not want to snap at work. Now I am seriously counting the days when I am leaving and I will not miss certain things about my job at all. The only things I will miss will be certain cool people, certain good times I actually had, and being able to request days off without too many problems.
But enough of that shit, the good news is that I was trained at Wal-Mart yesterday and I did pretty well on the register. That and I finally AAA'ed Gambol Light 7 and passed the CORE expert course on IIDX RED (which was really hard to pass thanks to Gigadelic).
Other than that, here's another serious note I want to get off my chest. I sometimes feel like I am fearing my future in some ways. I have an idea of what I want to be in life, it's just that I don't know how or if I can do it. I feel confident about myself most of the time, but there are also some moments in which I feel un confident at all. Example: I want to be a musician in one way or another, but for some reason I don't have the "drive" for it and I haven't played or practiced my guitar at all since May and this makes me feel really shitty because all I have been doing all this time is either playing IIDX or going to work or TGA. It makes my social life kinda shitty as well, even though there are some awesome people I have met at TGA, I still have my friends in Coventry that I haven't seen in a good amount of time. Sure, I talk to Brian most of the time, and he is really cool, but I also want to hang out with people like John D., Mike Maynard, Mike Tucker, and people I knew from school who were really awesome. Seeing how I will be going back to college next week, and also working at Wal-Mart at the same time, I really don't know what I am going to do. But that is how I feel at this very moment and I don't know what will happen in my future, but I want to make it a great one and I will keep pulling forward and hoping for the best.
I will now go to sleep and see what happens tomorrow. Goodnight to you all.
But enough of that shit, the good news is that I was trained at Wal-Mart yesterday and I did pretty well on the register. That and I finally AAA'ed Gambol Light 7 and passed the CORE expert course on IIDX RED (which was really hard to pass thanks to Gigadelic).
Other than that, here's another serious note I want to get off my chest. I sometimes feel like I am fearing my future in some ways. I have an idea of what I want to be in life, it's just that I don't know how or if I can do it. I feel confident about myself most of the time, but there are also some moments in which I feel un confident at all. Example: I want to be a musician in one way or another, but for some reason I don't have the "drive" for it and I haven't played or practiced my guitar at all since May and this makes me feel really shitty because all I have been doing all this time is either playing IIDX or going to work or TGA. It makes my social life kinda shitty as well, even though there are some awesome people I have met at TGA, I still have my friends in Coventry that I haven't seen in a good amount of time. Sure, I talk to Brian most of the time, and he is really cool, but I also want to hang out with people like John D., Mike Maynard, Mike Tucker, and people I knew from school who were really awesome. Seeing how I will be going back to college next week, and also working at Wal-Mart at the same time, I really don't know what I am going to do. But that is how I feel at this very moment and I don't know what will happen in my future, but I want to make it a great one and I will keep pulling forward and hoping for the best.
I will now go to sleep and see what happens tomorrow. Goodnight to you all.