im sorry

[kazpo_kid]

ok so lets see. im starting to get a little uneasy in my skin, my father as usual is pulling the same shit about how im not responsible and if i go to la i will die or worse ask him for help. my mother is a nother story, shes not doing so hot as far as being happy with her life goes. and like always im stuck in the middle playing everyones rock, obsorbing dads blows soking up moms tears and dealing with two of the greatest people i know but cant stand half the time which are my brothers. so latley ive stopped caring, alot. im a little worried about my school work suffering and having been sick for two weeks i put off a lot of stuff and didnt get anything really caught up. and the last day of classes by the way is this thursday. so ive decided after reading countless astrology books and this is your sign type of books ive come to a life ultering decision. im cutting myself off...for a little while...i need to start thinking about myself and what i need to do to get out of this rut ive put myself in. i need time to clear my head and get my life in some organization. so that meens that ill be deleting a few things from my life for a while....and while some people may not understand or be very happy with me this is something i need to do, so im cutting out my friends and anything that distracts from the task at hand which is getting my sorry ass to LA for good. im sorry if you are mad at me and think im being stupid or irrational but this is the choice that ive made. and its not for forever mind you, just till i get my head out of the clouds and my feet back on the ground also, it pains me to say girls are a very big distraction as of right now and must be eliminated so i shall not be dating niki or seeing brie or any other female close contact of any kind. believe me people this is going to be a lot harder on my than on you. im not going to pick up my phone unless i have a dier reason to, but i will check messages. sorry if i dont respond to them right away. im going to be making some big alterations in my life and i just need to do this alone. i love you all, see ya soon.

talk to you when im better
adam