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Oh hey! Well despite probably one of the shittiest weeks of my life there was some definite HIGHLIGHTS!
+ Saw System of a Down (and 20 minutes of Mars Volta)
- One of my best friend's went through an incredible loss that I can't even imagine what he's going through and everytime i think about it (which is alot) i get choked up and wonder "What's the POINT of this life?!"
+ Got POT!
- The ummmm consistent depression thing pops up every now and then and pot only seems to make it worse (it's supposed to help!) if I have over a certain amount of it.
+ Went to 311, certain "things" happen that kinda reminded of the time when I thought I was the Desirable Shit (as I did at one point till it all fizzled out). Perhaps things might rebound as a result of this?!
- COMPLETE sleep deprivation this whole week. Too much going on to sleep more than 4-5 hours any night.
- Britt got a cat
+ Get this Friday AND Monday off so Friday I'm gonna do my summerlike DC excursion thing (with Andy in tow!) and Saturday I've organized an Adam's Morgan jontery with usually unavailable attendees attending!
- Car got towed in front of my own building resulting in EVERYTHING else that day going wrong and resulting in my worst monday ever (but really it's all insignificant bullshit)
+ I GOT TO SEE MY COUSIN AT THE HAMPTONS!! It was hilariousness incarnate and love and happiness and the fulfillment that I needed all rolled into one! No one else like it and no one has made my stomach/sides hurt that much. Even after this whole week it's like I was just somewhere else and when I got here none of it existed or mattered anymore.
This next week will most certainly be better. You know why? Because I've already put so much shit in motion so as to distract me from any hopelessness I might have had before. Also because with all the sadness and despair this last week, there was some moments of ABSOLUTE amazement that happened as well. And yet they happened at bars?? NOT WHAT YOU THINK!
+ Saw System of a Down (and 20 minutes of Mars Volta)
- One of my best friend's went through an incredible loss that I can't even imagine what he's going through and everytime i think about it (which is alot) i get choked up and wonder "What's the POINT of this life?!"
+ Got POT!
- The ummmm consistent depression thing pops up every now and then and pot only seems to make it worse (it's supposed to help!) if I have over a certain amount of it.
+ Went to 311, certain "things" happen that kinda reminded of the time when I thought I was the Desirable Shit (as I did at one point till it all fizzled out). Perhaps things might rebound as a result of this?!
- COMPLETE sleep deprivation this whole week. Too much going on to sleep more than 4-5 hours any night.
- Britt got a cat
+ Get this Friday AND Monday off so Friday I'm gonna do my summerlike DC excursion thing (with Andy in tow!) and Saturday I've organized an Adam's Morgan jontery with usually unavailable attendees attending!
- Car got towed in front of my own building resulting in EVERYTHING else that day going wrong and resulting in my worst monday ever (but really it's all insignificant bullshit)
+ I GOT TO SEE MY COUSIN AT THE HAMPTONS!! It was hilariousness incarnate and love and happiness and the fulfillment that I needed all rolled into one! No one else like it and no one has made my stomach/sides hurt that much. Even after this whole week it's like I was just somewhere else and when I got here none of it existed or mattered anymore.
This next week will most certainly be better. You know why? Because I've already put so much shit in motion so as to distract me from any hopelessness I might have had before. Also because with all the sadness and despair this last week, there was some moments of ABSOLUTE amazement that happened as well. And yet they happened at bars?? NOT WHAT YOU THINK!