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I am pretty much the first person to admit that I have very low self-esteem. But sometimes I surprise even myself with my own negativity. For example, when I receive a compliment, I just cannot accept it with a smile and a "thank you" because something in me knows that it just is not true. So instead of thinking higher of the person who complimented me, I instead think "this person is a liar." Seriously. I just cannot ever view a compliment about me, especially anything having to do with my appearance as sincere because I just cannot believe them. It all just seems like flippant lip-service.
I don't know why I've been feeling so down on myself. My altered book is going fairly well. But on the other hand I am having really unhappy nightmares. I won't go into it, but this is what a dream decoder thingy says about a few aspects of the really awful dream I had last night:
School: to dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about performance and abilities
Cafeteria: To dream that you are in a cafeteria, denotes that there may be a lot of issues "eating you up inside."
Betrayal: to dream that you have been betrayed, represents your suspicions about a particular person, relationship, or situation. This dream often occurs when you are having feelings of insecurity and are faced with major commitments in your life at the same time.
Fun, Huh? The thing is, though the school/cafeteria part is new, the betrayal aspect has been recurring for me. In a weird way, it is also planting a seed of doubt in my mind that that betrayal that I have been consistantly dreaming about may actual be true...
What is wrong with me?!
I don't know why I've been feeling so down on myself. My altered book is going fairly well. But on the other hand I am having really unhappy nightmares. I won't go into it, but this is what a dream decoder thingy says about a few aspects of the really awful dream I had last night:
School: to dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about performance and abilities
Cafeteria: To dream that you are in a cafeteria, denotes that there may be a lot of issues "eating you up inside."
Betrayal: to dream that you have been betrayed, represents your suspicions about a particular person, relationship, or situation. This dream often occurs when you are having feelings of insecurity and are faced with major commitments in your life at the same time.
Fun, Huh? The thing is, though the school/cafeteria part is new, the betrayal aspect has been recurring for me. In a weird way, it is also planting a seed of doubt in my mind that that betrayal that I have been consistantly dreaming about may actual be true...
What is wrong with me?!