Eyes on the prize
well, my friends? In August, I will have worked at the Santa Cruz Public Library for 1 year. Starting July 1st, they are taking away the position I was subbing for, making me a 25-hour/week employee again. They are also taking away all the subs at central, so my backup plan, which was to get on the subs list and pick up extra hours, is looking tight. But I cannot live in santa cruz on a part time salary...when I did that, I had to borrow money from my parents to pay the rent and my college loan bills, let alone food. So, I'm doing what I've been doing since I got here- looking hopefully to the bay area to present me with a wonderful job in a perfect location with an amazing salary. I'll let you know when I find it. Until then, things are very uncertain. Additionally, my housemates are graduating in July, and they're moving out at some point (they could only tell me they'd be here through July- even they don't know what they're going to do yet), so I have to find another place to live, but I don't know if I'm even going to be living here for that much longer. PLus, I have to compete with the UCSC students who are all looking for housing the closer we get to August. What if I move, then get a job the next month someplace else? What if I wait and don't find a place to live?... It's all just a guessing game. Wait and see. Like college acceptance letters. It's weird to feel like a professional in one sense, and so unprofessional in another. I'm having a hard time finding an apartment I could rent by myself that I can afford. Let alone the issue of having a pet. And the worst part is, I don;t know what I want. Well, I sort of do, but I wonder if I'm making it an impossible goal just so I can tell myself it can't be done. Ah. this is a familiar path. One I don't think I'm going to rehash right now.
I'm going to try to read more nonfiction. Specifically, historical nonfiction. Time to teach myself everything I didn't learn in school. I'm starting with the American Revolution first. Figured I'd attempt to tackle this country's history and then move outwards towards the world.
I'm also taking an online XHTML class through work. It's exciting to get to learn something new and useful. I have my own website (which I'll give you guys the link to after the class is done and i'm posting more than just my boring assignments)!
I'm finishing up Kate Chopin's The Awakening. I like it- found it easier to read than I expected, considering it's a "classic". Such a loaded term. In addition to my historical nonfiction goal, I'm trying to read "classics" that I missed out on. Some of them, I have to say, I pick up, skim a page or two, and put them back, hanging my head and thinking, "not today." But, maybe I'll discover some gems that will give me more insight into the human condition. After all, that's what fiction does.
All gods who receive homage are cruel. All gods dispense suffering without reasons...half gods are worshiped in wine and flowers. Real gods require blood.
~Zora Neal Hurston's "Their Eyes Were Watching God"
I'm going to try to read more nonfiction. Specifically, historical nonfiction. Time to teach myself everything I didn't learn in school. I'm starting with the American Revolution first. Figured I'd attempt to tackle this country's history and then move outwards towards the world.
I'm also taking an online XHTML class through work. It's exciting to get to learn something new and useful. I have my own website (which I'll give you guys the link to after the class is done and i'm posting more than just my boring assignments)!
I'm finishing up Kate Chopin's The Awakening. I like it- found it easier to read than I expected, considering it's a "classic". Such a loaded term. In addition to my historical nonfiction goal, I'm trying to read "classics" that I missed out on. Some of them, I have to say, I pick up, skim a page or two, and put them back, hanging my head and thinking, "not today." But, maybe I'll discover some gems that will give me more insight into the human condition. After all, that's what fiction does.
All gods who receive homage are cruel. All gods dispense suffering without reasons...half gods are worshiped in wine and flowers. Real gods require blood.
~Zora Neal Hurston's "Their Eyes Were Watching God"