Damn Registration
Tomorrow is registration, and if you want to get the class you want, you have to wake up early (not 7AM early, 3AM early), and sit out in the freezing cold for hours.
I'm gonna get sick, I swear. It's snowing outside, and wearing 5 piles of cloths isn't seem to help all that much.
On the serious note...
I read a journal online by coincidence, and it was titled something like "Otaku girls daradara Journal." It was a journal by a middle school aged girl in Japan, who is, self proclaimed otaku. The part I was reading was a while ago, and she kept on mentioning how she wanted to die just thinking about going to school the next day. (mind you, it wasn't one of those "i hate the world, world is full of blackness and my heart bleeds" kind of angsty journal, but she sounded rather "making fun of her self"-ish... it's hard to explain) She mentioned some few stuff that happned in school, most of them wasn't serious stuff, but just simple kind of things that get's to you. She wrote how boys her age scared her. She wrote how she wanted to stay in the illusion (in her case, manga and anime). I wondered what happened to her and jumped to some of her recent journal entry, she wrote that she stopped going to school. Populary known in Japan as "toukou kyohi." It's not that uncommon in Japan anymore, infact it is known as one of the biggest problem in schools. Kids get's bullied at school, kids stop going to school.
It's scary to think that that might've been me. Seriously, one year in ASIJ (American School in Japan) sucked. I tried to not exist, I didn't talk at all. Group of young guys scared me. I got paranoid. I made like 3 friends and they were great friends, but that was after 1st semester. 1st semester was horrid. I knew no one. I also spent one year in Japanese Elementary school during 3rd grade. Although it wasn't as bad, few people did pick on me, and once I just went of of class because I was so pissed off at the kids.
IF I was living in Japan, IF I went to Japanese school all my life.... I probably would've been her. I love Japan. I can probably even live there for rest of my life. But I am so glad I was raised here, that I went to school here. As I continue my education going to Art School, I notice myself getting weirder and weirder, and more out going, and not caring about what other people think. Seems like exactly the opposite if I went to Japanese school... Something is wrong that kids go through those kinds of things in Japanese schools. When I went to BHSN or any other school, there were groups. And I could fit in to one of them. But in ASIJ, there was only one group. Either your in, or your out. If your out, your picked on.
I don't know what I'm going with this... I just had to get it out of my system. Sorry for my serious journal.
I'm gonna get sick, I swear. It's snowing outside, and wearing 5 piles of cloths isn't seem to help all that much.
On the serious note...
I read a journal online by coincidence, and it was titled something like "Otaku girls daradara Journal." It was a journal by a middle school aged girl in Japan, who is, self proclaimed otaku. The part I was reading was a while ago, and she kept on mentioning how she wanted to die just thinking about going to school the next day. (mind you, it wasn't one of those "i hate the world, world is full of blackness and my heart bleeds" kind of angsty journal, but she sounded rather "making fun of her self"-ish... it's hard to explain) She mentioned some few stuff that happned in school, most of them wasn't serious stuff, but just simple kind of things that get's to you. She wrote how boys her age scared her. She wrote how she wanted to stay in the illusion (in her case, manga and anime). I wondered what happened to her and jumped to some of her recent journal entry, she wrote that she stopped going to school. Populary known in Japan as "toukou kyohi." It's not that uncommon in Japan anymore, infact it is known as one of the biggest problem in schools. Kids get's bullied at school, kids stop going to school.
It's scary to think that that might've been me. Seriously, one year in ASIJ (American School in Japan) sucked. I tried to not exist, I didn't talk at all. Group of young guys scared me. I got paranoid. I made like 3 friends and they were great friends, but that was after 1st semester. 1st semester was horrid. I knew no one. I also spent one year in Japanese Elementary school during 3rd grade. Although it wasn't as bad, few people did pick on me, and once I just went of of class because I was so pissed off at the kids.
IF I was living in Japan, IF I went to Japanese school all my life.... I probably would've been her. I love Japan. I can probably even live there for rest of my life. But I am so glad I was raised here, that I went to school here. As I continue my education going to Art School, I notice myself getting weirder and weirder, and more out going, and not caring about what other people think. Seems like exactly the opposite if I went to Japanese school... Something is wrong that kids go through those kinds of things in Japanese schools. When I went to BHSN or any other school, there were groups. And I could fit in to one of them. But in ASIJ, there was only one group. Either your in, or your out. If your out, your picked on.
I don't know what I'm going with this... I just had to get it out of my system. Sorry for my serious journal.