Look guys, this is bullshit
I just got off the phone with Jay and there's no good way to talk to gainesville folk, so I'm doing Livejournal style, cry me a freaking emo river.
Quite frankly I don't know why I bothered going down to UF. I left my home, my friends, everything to go to a place and I tried my damnedest to make new friends and family down there. I was pretty fucking successful too. I talked to people in my classes, met a bunch of folks and found great people that really liked me. I had a crew of people from Japanese, Anthro, ELI, you name it I had someone to talk to and that was a first for me.
Apparently I shouldn't have fucking bothered. Because in the end my Nantucket friends are the only ones who actually care enough about me to stick up for me and be there for me when I need them. I'm not picking on Cavin, Hali, Jon, Jacob, etc. because they were as supportive as they could be and rightly so. I'm pissed off at everyone that knows Patrick and STILL hangs out with him. In my previous post I said that was fine and it was, but no one cares what he did to me. No one is upset and they're taking his side in all of this. If there is any side taking, and I'm going to be a bitch here, anyone with half a brain should take my side. I was in Japan for two months IN LOVE WITH HIM and he dumped me one day ON THE PHONE, WHILE I WAS STILL IN JAPAN out of nowhere. TWO DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY and the SAME DAY I FOUND OUT MY MOM HAD CANCER (again). Where does that seem fair? What the fuck did I do?
I know everyone is saying, "well that's how people get divorced", "you didn't get dumped on AIM like so and so" or "be glad this happened now and not later". That doesn't make this better and it doesn't make it any less wrong. Sure talk to Pat, see him every now and then, but you should damn well have atalk with him before you do. You should stick up for me and defend me when Im not there. You should know how much your friend was hurt by this asshole and let him fucking know. You shouldn't stand for his shit and shouldn't damn well go over all the time just to watch football. I know his entertainment system was enough to replace me for him, it shouldn't replace me for my real friends. You all know Patrick because of me, he knows you because of ME. WHY IN THE HELL AM I SO EASY TO FORGET?! HOW CAN SO MANY PEOPLE JUST STOP BEING MY FRIEND? What the fuck cdid I do? Maybe I won't come back to Florida, it'snot like anyone's going to be there if I do.
I thought I was going on the cruise, which Mer told me was Jan 3, then the 10, apparently it's the 20th so I can't go anymore, opps guess that's my loss. Thanks for getting back to me on that. Also if I visit Florida no one will pick me up in Orlando, Jay doesn't want to do it, Elmer's too busy with carrie and Chris Lane said he would, but I don't want to be anywhere NEAR HIM. He's trying to get Pat to go out to bars to find chicks. That's a true friend. Thanks Chris you just jabbed the knife in deeper, you selfish prick.
Quite frankly I don't know why I bothered going down to UF. I left my home, my friends, everything to go to a place and I tried my damnedest to make new friends and family down there. I was pretty fucking successful too. I talked to people in my classes, met a bunch of folks and found great people that really liked me. I had a crew of people from Japanese, Anthro, ELI, you name it I had someone to talk to and that was a first for me.
Apparently I shouldn't have fucking bothered. Because in the end my Nantucket friends are the only ones who actually care enough about me to stick up for me and be there for me when I need them. I'm not picking on Cavin, Hali, Jon, Jacob, etc. because they were as supportive as they could be and rightly so. I'm pissed off at everyone that knows Patrick and STILL hangs out with him. In my previous post I said that was fine and it was, but no one cares what he did to me. No one is upset and they're taking his side in all of this. If there is any side taking, and I'm going to be a bitch here, anyone with half a brain should take my side. I was in Japan for two months IN LOVE WITH HIM and he dumped me one day ON THE PHONE, WHILE I WAS STILL IN JAPAN out of nowhere. TWO DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY and the SAME DAY I FOUND OUT MY MOM HAD CANCER (again). Where does that seem fair? What the fuck did I do?
I know everyone is saying, "well that's how people get divorced", "you didn't get dumped on AIM like so and so" or "be glad this happened now and not later". That doesn't make this better and it doesn't make it any less wrong. Sure talk to Pat, see him every now and then, but you should damn well have atalk with him before you do. You should stick up for me and defend me when Im not there. You should know how much your friend was hurt by this asshole and let him fucking know. You shouldn't stand for his shit and shouldn't damn well go over all the time just to watch football. I know his entertainment system was enough to replace me for him, it shouldn't replace me for my real friends. You all know Patrick because of me, he knows you because of ME. WHY IN THE HELL AM I SO EASY TO FORGET?! HOW CAN SO MANY PEOPLE JUST STOP BEING MY FRIEND? What the fuck cdid I do? Maybe I won't come back to Florida, it'snot like anyone's going to be there if I do.
I thought I was going on the cruise, which Mer told me was Jan 3, then the 10, apparently it's the 20th so I can't go anymore, opps guess that's my loss. Thanks for getting back to me on that. Also if I visit Florida no one will pick me up in Orlando, Jay doesn't want to do it, Elmer's too busy with carrie and Chris Lane said he would, but I don't want to be anywhere NEAR HIM. He's trying to get Pat to go out to bars to find chicks. That's a true friend. Thanks Chris you just jabbed the knife in deeper, you selfish prick.