this is my pressure valve...
I realized finally why there are so many entries where I express all the negative emotions that I have...its because this is the only place where I feel comfortable to release what I feel...at least in an explainable fashion...I have the need to record these feelings, to look at them from somewhere besides in my head...but once I write them down...it all seems just so stupid...which is why I don't like talking about my problems, because it just seems so tame and so unimportant compared to some of the other shit that people are going through...
I really can't stand this place...here I am alone, no friends, and nothing to do...I really could do with something...hearing from others on what they are doing or who they are hanging out with just makes me more introverted...I want to join in the fun as well, I want to write to others saying that I am doing something cool fun and enjoyable...
I have decided to not be on MSN for most of the summer, mainly because I am starting that trend of just sitting at the computer and staring at the screen trying to get someone to talk to me...but two things usually happen...either a) no response or b) I don't have anything to say...WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? I feel so goddamn pathetic...
I really can't stand this place...here I am alone, no friends, and nothing to do...I really could do with something...hearing from others on what they are doing or who they are hanging out with just makes me more introverted...I want to join in the fun as well, I want to write to others saying that I am doing something cool fun and enjoyable...
I have decided to not be on MSN for most of the summer, mainly because I am starting that trend of just sitting at the computer and staring at the screen trying to get someone to talk to me...but two things usually happen...either a) no response or b) I don't have anything to say...WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? I feel so goddamn pathetic...