I suck.
Yeah the thing blew over. God I'm such a drama queen.
Anyway, the thing I was (immaturely) upset about was my end of the year grade eight trip that's coming up. My class is going to Ottawa (Around Toronto here) and my mom said I couldn't go. And I was being immature and selfish by not speaking to her because I felt she was being unfair. Because, this is my last year of elementary school and who knows when I'll see my class again after this, right? So I feel that the trip may be one of the last days (and maybe the last trip I have for awhile), especially with my classmates and friends. Like, there's a big possibility that I won't be able to get together with my old friends again after this year ends. SO, I want my last trip to be memorable.
See I thought this was about the $200 dollars I need to go on the trip. I have $122 (canadian.) saved up and with the help of my brother, I thought that the only issue would be wiped away. But then mom blew up when I went up to her saying I have most of the money on my own and Chris (bro.) came out of his room and argued with mom. She stormed off, he went off and I was in my room by that time. THEN mom comes out of her room and asks how I'll raise the money. And then she tells me she doesn't want me to go because she's afraid I'll get kidnapped/raped/whatever else while I'm away for the three days. So that kind of changed everything.
I assured her that I'd have my cell phone, I'd be with someone ALL the time, I wouldn't do anything stupid and to trust I won't do anything stupid. Mom watches a lot of those talk shows about kids disappearing and stuff so her biggest fear is I'll go missing. She has bad dreams about that stuff and me so she's become... kind of paranoid. Which I can completely understand. And I can't 100% say I'll be fine, but for the most part I can just... hope I will be?
So now I'm a little scared to go. Mom's got her words and fears in my head and I'm not so sure of going anymore... *sigh*.
Overall, I feel so very stupid. ^^;; And I have a reason to be.
God, I'm such a drama queen.
Anyway, the thing I was (immaturely) upset about was my end of the year grade eight trip that's coming up. My class is going to Ottawa (Around Toronto here) and my mom said I couldn't go. And I was being immature and selfish by not speaking to her because I felt she was being unfair. Because, this is my last year of elementary school and who knows when I'll see my class again after this, right? So I feel that the trip may be one of the last days (and maybe the last trip I have for awhile), especially with my classmates and friends. Like, there's a big possibility that I won't be able to get together with my old friends again after this year ends. SO, I want my last trip to be memorable.
See I thought this was about the $200 dollars I need to go on the trip. I have $122 (canadian.) saved up and with the help of my brother, I thought that the only issue would be wiped away. But then mom blew up when I went up to her saying I have most of the money on my own and Chris (bro.) came out of his room and argued with mom. She stormed off, he went off and I was in my room by that time. THEN mom comes out of her room and asks how I'll raise the money. And then she tells me she doesn't want me to go because she's afraid I'll get kidnapped/raped/whatever else while I'm away for the three days. So that kind of changed everything.
I assured her that I'd have my cell phone, I'd be with someone ALL the time, I wouldn't do anything stupid and to trust I won't do anything stupid. Mom watches a lot of those talk shows about kids disappearing and stuff so her biggest fear is I'll go missing. She has bad dreams about that stuff and me so she's become... kind of paranoid. Which I can completely understand. And I can't 100% say I'll be fine, but for the most part I can just... hope I will be?
So now I'm a little scared to go. Mom's got her words and fears in my head and I'm not so sure of going anymore... *sigh*.
Overall, I feel so very stupid. ^^;; And I have a reason to be.
God, I'm such a drama queen.