what's disturbing is that i had a very troubling, frustrating dream about my own mother the other night - i think she heard me yelling from upstairs. i woke up crying and had to go hug her for a long, long time because i was so shaken. (scared by dreams when i'm almost thirty?? i have problems...)
and then something weird occurred to me - thinking about it over and over again, i wondered if it had something to do with my concern for you - and i thought i was just being silly, but i also have a kind of superstitious side i don't like to admit to, so... i didn't want to think it was any kind of a sign or a hint, but i was honestly a bit afraid to come check your journal, that's why i've been hesitant the past week or two...
so i put it off until today. and then i saw this and i just felt my stomach sink.
i'm so, so sorry, kaz.... like the rest have said, i'm glad you have friends and family to help you out, but i really wish i could be there for you more than i can being all the way up here....there's really nothing else i can say except i'm sorry, and i hope you can hang in there.
thank you. it's been 2 weeks since she died....i really can't believe it. i'm doing alot better now. i guess in my own way, i've been mourning for the last six months since she got sick...
thank you for your concern...it really means alot! =)
take care of your mum, hug her and tell her you love her everyday!
what's disturbing is that i had a very troubling, frustrating dream about my own mother the other night - i think she heard me yelling from upstairs. i woke up crying and had to go hug her for a long, long time because i was so shaken. (scared by dreams when i'm almost thirty?? i have problems...)
and then something weird occurred to me - thinking about it over and over again, i wondered if it had something to do with my concern for you - and i thought i was just being silly, but i also have a kind of superstitious side i don't like to admit to, so... i didn't want to think it was any kind of a sign or a hint, but i was honestly a bit afraid to come check your journal, that's why i've been hesitant the past week or two...
so i put it off until today. and then i saw this and i just felt my stomach sink.
i'm so, so sorry, kaz.... like the rest have said, i'm glad you have friends and family to help you out, but i really wish i could be there for you more than i can being all the way up here....there's really nothing else i can say except i'm sorry, and i hope you can hang in there.
um...music is nice :)
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thank you for your concern...it really means alot! =)
take care of your mum, hug her and tell her you love her everyday!
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