I'm home.
Yeah so I got home from my friends house. I really like him, he's a cool person, nice attitude, funny, smart, seemingly uncomplicated.
But i broke up with JEFF and i am MAD at myself because I really really really really like him. I mean I miss him, he won't get off my mind. ANd I do not like that. But also i think about prettiful the same if not more, and then my friend mentioned above also comes in. SO i dunno. I'm just ughhh. I feel so off. And unsettled and horrible I broke up with my jeffie poo! OMG what was I thinking, but he does like to argue and blah blah blah. I don't know But I MISS HIM!. :( WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS? I HATE LOVE WITH A SICK PASSION. It's fuckin killin me. really.
and then I think about how i am bitching over stupid shit, when there is so much more to life than this bullshit. And I think of Nycita. I know we aren't close, but i cannot help think of her situation. It hurts me to see someone endure so much pain. And I cannot help but put another in front of myself.
because even though I know what's right for me, i tend to want to do more for the whole.
I am not a "bible" person persay, but i must insert this here
"It is possible to give away and become richer! It is also possible to hold on too tightly and lose everything. Yes, the liberal man shall be rich! By watering others, he waters himself."
Proverbs 11:24-25
So by helping another in need, and putting one's self behind the needs of another is less fortunate than myself only makes sense. Now you're thinking where does NYCITA come in. Well this part has nothing to do with her other than the fact she has pointed something out to me and kicked me in the face.
Life is unexpected, you do not know what God has planned for you. Keep in touch with those you cherish because one day God will call and bring them home. And only he is to say when that time may come. Also, give to others, and share what you have, whether it be money, love, home, happiness, ect. Because you never know who may need it the most, and if you get fucked over in the process, so be it, because God has something better in store, but you must trust this. Give while you can to those in need, and god will repay you with so much more.
anyway i'm tired. I love everybody and good night. also thank you mala :)
But i broke up with JEFF and i am MAD at myself because I really really really really like him. I mean I miss him, he won't get off my mind. ANd I do not like that. But also i think about prettiful the same if not more, and then my friend mentioned above also comes in. SO i dunno. I'm just ughhh. I feel so off. And unsettled and horrible I broke up with my jeffie poo! OMG what was I thinking, but he does like to argue and blah blah blah. I don't know But I MISS HIM!. :( WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS? I HATE LOVE WITH A SICK PASSION. It's fuckin killin me. really.
and then I think about how i am bitching over stupid shit, when there is so much more to life than this bullshit. And I think of Nycita. I know we aren't close, but i cannot help think of her situation. It hurts me to see someone endure so much pain. And I cannot help but put another in front of myself.
because even though I know what's right for me, i tend to want to do more for the whole.
I am not a "bible" person persay, but i must insert this here
"It is possible to give away and become richer! It is also possible to hold on too tightly and lose everything. Yes, the liberal man shall be rich! By watering others, he waters himself."
Proverbs 11:24-25
So by helping another in need, and putting one's self behind the needs of another is less fortunate than myself only makes sense. Now you're thinking where does NYCITA come in. Well this part has nothing to do with her other than the fact she has pointed something out to me and kicked me in the face.
Life is unexpected, you do not know what God has planned for you. Keep in touch with those you cherish because one day God will call and bring them home. And only he is to say when that time may come. Also, give to others, and share what you have, whether it be money, love, home, happiness, ect. Because you never know who may need it the most, and if you get fucked over in the process, so be it, because God has something better in store, but you must trust this. Give while you can to those in need, and god will repay you with so much more.
anyway i'm tired. I love everybody and good night. also thank you mala :)