silence in black and white

[kazarin42]

yesterday i pondered whether 'god' had a future for us. if there even is a god. i mean....ive read books and books about different religions and even the 'space' religion...but that intriqued me. I mean, well, for those who dont know, the whole space theory is that aliens created mankind. some theorize that some aliens even settled here. others think that aliens have even created the solar system. but yeah...i mean...this 'god'...if he does exist....i dont know...currently im reading this book, i forgot the name though...something wierd scientific shit...but yeah...its all about the theory about aliens settling earth. and it refrences many ancient civilizations' gods. and all this shit its crazy.. i dont know..wierd. but i watched this other thing on the history channel about the bible code...historians think that aliens have left secret messages in the bible, torah, etc... and they HAVE found some interesting shit. im not gonna ramble but..one of the things is that mankind with go through an 'end' at 2012. but they say that the 'end' couldnt exactly mean the appocolyspe. it could mean a change in life, an end to sins? but yeah...it also says some crazy earthquake will hit los angles in 2010...wierd..science is. but this whole thing, 'theory' kinda makes me seem...worthless? anyway....2-3 weeks left of school....some crazy shit is going on right now...a lot which my mind isnt able to comprehend...i think that in highschool im going to end up changing who i hang wit...im probably gonna go goth...if i find some cool goths at the school...ive always wanted to go goth...apathy-ness....

Three last words,
I love you is all she heard
I'll wait for you
I can't wait forever...

Cut my wrists and black my eyes
So i can fall alseep tonight
or die

Because you kill me
You know you kill me well
You like it to and I can tell
You never stopped until
My final breath is gone....

Hawthorne Heights bitches......