just one of those days i guess..
Today, overall, was a good day. I got up at around 1, showered, and watched the Lions game in Andy's room. I spent some time with Casey, and we taught her how to play Halo. We played for 2 hours or so, and today it was me, Casey, Italian Dave, Joe, Zach, Andy, Ross, and Irish Dave. I should be a pro in a couple weeks here. Zach made his name as "PB n Jerkit", once again in Joe's honor. Andy made "ididcasey", and Casey made "ANDYSmasVAG." Andy's ma's vag didn't score at all though, hah. So besides that, I didn't do much. We went to Center Ice and ate, I played some guitar, and I cleaned my room. Then me, Casey, Irish Dave, Adam, Jeremy, and Zach watched Mean Girls in Casey's room. That's a good movie. So then after we watched that, me and Casey had a long talk about things similar to the movie, like how middle and high school treated us. Casey and I are very similar. I was getting all teary about stuff.
So it made me want to just spill to my beloved Lj all of these random things. For example, have you ever wanted something that you know you can't have? I hate that. It's almost the worst feeling in the world. Particularly speaking about guys. I know I'm not beautiful, or perfect, or whatever. But still. Sometimes it's just nice to know that someone cares...or likes you...or wants to spend time with you, or make you happy. Or whatever. Or it's nice to know that someone wants you for you. I'm one of those people that could care less about what people think. This is who I am. I want someone who likes me for ME. You can only give so much and take so much until it just isn't something that you can handle anymore. So then that's where people think I'm a bitch. Whatever. I don't even care sometimes. That's why I'm so glad I'm here now I guess. I have tons of new friends, and I'm here with a sort of clean slate attitude. Nobody knows my past, right? Nobody knows or cares what clique I was in in high school. I'm glad to get away from all of that. At first I was pissed that I was put in Henderson, since it's on southwest campus, far away from main campus, AND that I was put on the 3rd floor, since I tend to be lazy, but now, I see it as a blessing in disguise. I wouldn't change a damn thing. I LOVE everyone here. I can't even tell you how many great people I've met. It sucks to think that next year it won't be exactly the same. Everyone here respects me for who I am, minus the occasional Yooper comment, but hey, that's me.
And since I have a link to my Lj in my AIM profile, I obviously don't put stuff in here that I don't want people to read. So guess what world? I think that Andy, Zach, and Irish Dave are all fucking adorable. I don't care if they see this or know that I think that. Whatever I guess. Jake Roberts basically told me once to tell someone how you feel about them, because the worst that can happen is they won't feel the same. Good advice from a great person.
I'm so excited for Nate and Roy to come here. I honestly can't believe that they're driving 6 hours here...just to see me. I've never had anyone do anything like that. I've never had anyone ask me out on a date, to a dance, or buy me flowers, or throw me a party, or anything like that. For the most part, I'm the giver. I'm definitely not trying to feel sorry for myself here, I'm just saying. I'm one of the few of my close friends that's gone away to school, and I just have this horrible feeling in the back of my mind sometimes that they could give a fat shit less that I'm gone. I hope to God that that's not true, but you just never know. I wish people could just say what they mean, and mean what they say. I wish someone would just call me one day and say "I miss you" and mean it. I've called people to tell them that several times since I've moved away, because in all honestly, there a few people that mean so much to me that I truly miss. I'd love to name you right here, and just say "I miss ___________", but then someone wouldn't be listed, and they'd get offended. I know who i miss, and I think you'd know, too. I want to say right now though, thank you to everyone who's at least made an attempt to keep in touch with me. I came to Ferris knowing not a damn person, the only Negaunee grad to come here. I knew nobody in my building, nobody in my classes, nobody anywhere. I've adjusted well. I've made friends that I hang out with daily, and I wouldn't change that for the world. But there's still the people back at home that I wish would make a better effort. I decided that there's certain people that I've given up on, and if they want to talk to me that bad, they've got my number.
I guess I'll leave it at that.
I have a lot of things to think about.
-Katie
So it made me want to just spill to my beloved Lj all of these random things. For example, have you ever wanted something that you know you can't have? I hate that. It's almost the worst feeling in the world. Particularly speaking about guys. I know I'm not beautiful, or perfect, or whatever. But still. Sometimes it's just nice to know that someone cares...or likes you...or wants to spend time with you, or make you happy. Or whatever. Or it's nice to know that someone wants you for you. I'm one of those people that could care less about what people think. This is who I am. I want someone who likes me for ME. You can only give so much and take so much until it just isn't something that you can handle anymore. So then that's where people think I'm a bitch. Whatever. I don't even care sometimes. That's why I'm so glad I'm here now I guess. I have tons of new friends, and I'm here with a sort of clean slate attitude. Nobody knows my past, right? Nobody knows or cares what clique I was in in high school. I'm glad to get away from all of that. At first I was pissed that I was put in Henderson, since it's on southwest campus, far away from main campus, AND that I was put on the 3rd floor, since I tend to be lazy, but now, I see it as a blessing in disguise. I wouldn't change a damn thing. I LOVE everyone here. I can't even tell you how many great people I've met. It sucks to think that next year it won't be exactly the same. Everyone here respects me for who I am, minus the occasional Yooper comment, but hey, that's me.
And since I have a link to my Lj in my AIM profile, I obviously don't put stuff in here that I don't want people to read. So guess what world? I think that Andy, Zach, and Irish Dave are all fucking adorable. I don't care if they see this or know that I think that. Whatever I guess. Jake Roberts basically told me once to tell someone how you feel about them, because the worst that can happen is they won't feel the same. Good advice from a great person.
I'm so excited for Nate and Roy to come here. I honestly can't believe that they're driving 6 hours here...just to see me. I've never had anyone do anything like that. I've never had anyone ask me out on a date, to a dance, or buy me flowers, or throw me a party, or anything like that. For the most part, I'm the giver. I'm definitely not trying to feel sorry for myself here, I'm just saying. I'm one of the few of my close friends that's gone away to school, and I just have this horrible feeling in the back of my mind sometimes that they could give a fat shit less that I'm gone. I hope to God that that's not true, but you just never know. I wish people could just say what they mean, and mean what they say. I wish someone would just call me one day and say "I miss you" and mean it. I've called people to tell them that several times since I've moved away, because in all honestly, there a few people that mean so much to me that I truly miss. I'd love to name you right here, and just say "I miss ___________", but then someone wouldn't be listed, and they'd get offended. I know who i miss, and I think you'd know, too. I want to say right now though, thank you to everyone who's at least made an attempt to keep in touch with me. I came to Ferris knowing not a damn person, the only Negaunee grad to come here. I knew nobody in my building, nobody in my classes, nobody anywhere. I've adjusted well. I've made friends that I hang out with daily, and I wouldn't change that for the world. But there's still the people back at home that I wish would make a better effort. I decided that there's certain people that I've given up on, and if they want to talk to me that bad, they've got my number.
I guess I'll leave it at that.
I have a lot of things to think about.
-Katie