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Today was my last day ever of taking an undergraduate class. I have one final next week and then I'm done. I am a college graduate (as long as I don't fail my final haha).
I have decided not to go immediatly to grad school. Big risk I know. but I believe that I'll apply next year. Alex will make me. I've made him promise. It's just that I stretched myself too thin this semester and I don't feel like I'd be able to give it as much energy as it deserves. I've been an honor roll student my entire school career and I'm exhausted. I need time to hate simply working. Also, next year when Alex and I are living together it'd be nice to just be without either one of us putting so much into our education (ie what we've done since we were 5). He will be taking a year before (potentially) starting a fellowship and so we'll both have a year to just work and be together. It'll be a nice change of priorities for both of us. We're both the type of people who burry themselves in activities, work and school at the sacrifice of our interpersonal relationships (this being almost on purpose) and now that we're in a relationship that we really really care about and want to stay in forever, we're going to make that a priority instead of just being the emotionless career fiends that we at one time imagined ourselves becoming.
It feels really good. Although my mom lectured me about the dangers of getting me pregnant and (me interpreting her words) ruining my life if I don't go right away to grad school. but I'm not going to waste my time and money and risk not doing well if I'm not 100% sold on the idea. Grad School is expensive and demanding. I'm not going to do it if I'm already dragging.
I miss all of you a lot. You're all amazing and I love you.
I have decided not to go immediatly to grad school. Big risk I know. but I believe that I'll apply next year. Alex will make me. I've made him promise. It's just that I stretched myself too thin this semester and I don't feel like I'd be able to give it as much energy as it deserves. I've been an honor roll student my entire school career and I'm exhausted. I need time to hate simply working. Also, next year when Alex and I are living together it'd be nice to just be without either one of us putting so much into our education (ie what we've done since we were 5). He will be taking a year before (potentially) starting a fellowship and so we'll both have a year to just work and be together. It'll be a nice change of priorities for both of us. We're both the type of people who burry themselves in activities, work and school at the sacrifice of our interpersonal relationships (this being almost on purpose) and now that we're in a relationship that we really really care about and want to stay in forever, we're going to make that a priority instead of just being the emotionless career fiends that we at one time imagined ourselves becoming.
It feels really good. Although my mom lectured me about the dangers of getting me pregnant and (me interpreting her words) ruining my life if I don't go right away to grad school. but I'm not going to waste my time and money and risk not doing well if I'm not 100% sold on the idea. Grad School is expensive and demanding. I'm not going to do it if I'm already dragging.
I miss all of you a lot. You're all amazing and I love you.