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[kayshaaa]

this is a fresh start in the simplest of forms. i deleted my old livejournal because it was disgusting. i physically wanted to get ill when i read it. i was pathetic, ignorant, and innocent. i did not know who i was no matter how many times i told myself i did, but now i know the truth. i was a pushover straight down to the definition. i let others beat me down simply to keep them around. i am happy to stand tall and say that girl is gone. i will never again let people influence my life to the point that i lose who i am. i was trying so hard to be the one, i hated who i had become. as of now, i am a sophomore at the university of southern indiana. i am a wonderful student and manage to have fun with the best people i have ever met. i still have my boyfriend. and i don't see that changing. i have two best friends. and countless friends who have my back in any silly situation. i stand up for myself and that is something everyone does, but for me it's new. if you are being a bitch, i will tell you. if you are pissing me off, i'll be the first to let you know. i am an adult. i have my life planned out. and most of those who hurt me in the past will never amount to anything. the people i love help me grow. mat teaches me how to love more and more everyday. chloe teaches me to say what i feel when i feel it and to never apologize when it's not my fault. diamond teaches me that those who are alike can help each other live. moving away has changed my life. i found myself. and i love myself. things are alot different now and i wouldn't change it if i could.

goodnight, dream big.
love.