Dec 02, 2004 00:58
How can you care about someone so much and they could care less about you. Well maybe care less is not the right words. Umm...they just take advantage of you and forget that you have feelings. And that you should be treated with the same respect and just because you have "history" together doesn't mean that you'll automatically forgive them when they forget your birthday or some important event like that. Why is it that I continue to give and give and give and then get nothing in return. Curteousy is what it is I guess.
I think he is just a very nonsensical and oblivious male.
I don't think I should have come to see you
just made it harder
I mean I am glad that I did
but it was just difficult
i was afraid of that
well for me it is "out of sight out of mind" so its not like I am gonna feel this way for a while
do you see how it would be hard tho...? I mean the first night it was just like everything was perfect and then you tell me you're dating someone? I mean I guess I am not the one to say that your feelings were "fake" because I assume they were somewhat genuine, but I just don't get it i guess
(And then there's no response....waiting....waiting....and someone else gets on the computer....crucial timing!)
You know what tho...its all my fault. I shouldn't have made myself vulnerable. And I did. So there I go again!!! It makes me feel better that its all on me tho. I don't know why.
It's all just a joke I think!! I'll just laugh about this because its all that I can do! Well sorry for the pessemistic attitude. Just keep thinking, "outta sight, outta mind!"