Jul 27, 2004 00:29
So this conference that I am attending is officially a piece of crap and a waste of time. I am not getting ANYTHING out of it...all it seems like is the same old stuff. I only learned one valuable thing today and the rest was just for novice leaders. Oh well. I got home early and went shopping for i-pods w/ Marlon and then we went with Michelle to San Francisco to have dinner at the Cheesecake factory. Yum...so good. We took BART and there were so many homeless people it was CRAZY. So sad. We had a good time talking, laughing and joking with eachother.
I love laughing. Its one of my favorite things in the world to do.
So what life taught me today: You can't force the things that you want and desire. There is a plan and I am not in control of that plan no matter how hard I try. Take advantage and be greatful for the FRIENDSHIPS that you have, even if you desire more than that.
What does it mean when you go to bed thinking about someone and then you dream about them and wake up thinking about them? It feels weird.
So I leave in T-minus 4 days. So much to do, but it hasn't really hit me yet. Wow, I really need to still see some people before I go back. Crap. I think i am gonna come back the weekend of the 6th just to finish some business. I want to leave but I want to stay. I think I just need to cry.
Good night.