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so i go ask mom if she want`s to go to the movies with me. and she says no you don`t want to go with me you just want to see the movie, no actually i wanted to hang out with my mom and solve our problem, but no. she doesn`t understand that i said things i didn`t mean when we faught and so did she, atleast i think she didn`t mean what she said. she makes my life so hard. she says "you sat in your room for two days did nothing around the house" well that`s because when i came out of my room she would yell at me and i didn`t want t get yelled at, whatever. life is so hard at the momment, you have no idea how bad i miss mike and meggie, god i miss them. i`m miserable i miss having a life. i`m worried as fuck about school starting, god am i nervous. mom said, maybe you should think about apologizing to me. and i tell her well maybe you should apologize for telling me i`m worthless and wishing i was dead. and she says i don`t need to apologize, what she said was wrong to.but obviously. she wasn`t lying to me that`s really how she feels and it hurts. maybe if or when she realize that i cut, maybe than she`ll care. she saw i a picture before that scared her shitless.that scares me to think that my mom
really does hate me, i know i`ve never been really close to her but i do care
what she thinks about me.and i do look up to her in some ways,she doesn`t
let anything stop her from following her dreams, she`s 43 and she`s back in
College, she couldn`t afford college when she was younger because her dad
was dying and she was being raised by her sisters. i feel bad for her in ways
because her mom died when she was 14 and her dad 4 years later.and if she
really did die i have no clue what i would do, my life would just fall apart.
yeah, i know you don`t like sappy entrys or whatever i`m just in a terrible mood.
oh and here`s pictures.
this is the picture that scared her, it had her crying.
ew fag
i have a retarded smile, shut up.
the end.
bye.
(psmike`smyworld)