makes her feel damn w o r t h l e s s

[kayru]

It's strange, the smallest thing set me off today. My mom came into my room and after a while asked to see a picture of Faylinn, so I showed her. We were looking at it and she asked me what color of collar I'd like to get her, and immediately I said 'Not red' because that's the color Dirk's was, and she said that she understood why I didn't want it that color, but she thought it'd befitting on her (she's probably right, but I still don't want Faylinn to wear a red collar). Thankfully she left almost after that, and I cried to myself.

I thought I was doing really well, maybe I'm not as fine as I thought I was.