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I'm doing a little better. Sick to death of the "christmas spirit" but hanging in there.
Went to my cousin's engagement party last night. Everyone was there with someone. It got mushy. Not surprising being an engagement party I suppose but really not the sort of place I wanted to be considering my mood. There were kids everywhere. I had at least 3 people come up to me (2 of them complete strangers) and tell me to smile or ask if I wanted to go sit with them. Now, I hate when people tell me to smile. "Smile! It's Christmas!" Yea, fuck off and die asshole. Some of us aren't having such a great time of it and you sticking your face in mine and reminding me how miserable I look makes me want to gouge out your eyes with a rusty spoon.
Meanwhile my cousin's first question was - are you on the pull tonight? She then tried to hook me up with some guy she hardly knew and the barmaid (who apparently had been dumped 3 days ago so she's fair game). I spent as much time as possible hiding in a corner but the units practically ordered me to go sit with someone so I sat at a table and played 5th wheel to the only two couples I knew. That didn't seem to be good enough and so I was directed to sit by the numerous small children sprawled out asleep on chairs while the units talked to everyone but me.
Yea. It wasn't such a good night. But I'm trying to keep cheerful. I wrapped the presents while watching Harry Potter, cleaned my room and the rat cages and I'm now sitting down with a glass of the wine I got from work and I'm going to attempt to spruce up the unit's website in time for the grand unveiling tomorrow. I suspect it will be greeted with a meh or what did you get us that for?? but I've bought it so they're going to get it.
The fraternal sibling is being civil for now and I still have a glimmer of hope that things may just be ok tomorrow. Either way I hope you all have a very excellent holiday season, whatever you celebrate or don't celebrate as the case may be.
P.S. Forgive me, this is probably old news but who the hell allowed Noel Gallagher to surgically remove the joy and the christmas spirit from the song you hear and you know it's christmas* and release it?? Dear god if I wasn't depressed before, I certainly am now...
*Slade's So Here It Is Merry Christmas
Went to my cousin's engagement party last night. Everyone was there with someone. It got mushy. Not surprising being an engagement party I suppose but really not the sort of place I wanted to be considering my mood. There were kids everywhere. I had at least 3 people come up to me (2 of them complete strangers) and tell me to smile or ask if I wanted to go sit with them. Now, I hate when people tell me to smile. "Smile! It's Christmas!" Yea, fuck off and die asshole. Some of us aren't having such a great time of it and you sticking your face in mine and reminding me how miserable I look makes me want to gouge out your eyes with a rusty spoon.
Meanwhile my cousin's first question was - are you on the pull tonight? She then tried to hook me up with some guy she hardly knew and the barmaid (who apparently had been dumped 3 days ago so she's fair game). I spent as much time as possible hiding in a corner but the units practically ordered me to go sit with someone so I sat at a table and played 5th wheel to the only two couples I knew. That didn't seem to be good enough and so I was directed to sit by the numerous small children sprawled out asleep on chairs while the units talked to everyone but me.
Yea. It wasn't such a good night. But I'm trying to keep cheerful. I wrapped the presents while watching Harry Potter, cleaned my room and the rat cages and I'm now sitting down with a glass of the wine I got from work and I'm going to attempt to spruce up the unit's website in time for the grand unveiling tomorrow. I suspect it will be greeted with a meh or what did you get us that for?? but I've bought it so they're going to get it.
The fraternal sibling is being civil for now and I still have a glimmer of hope that things may just be ok tomorrow. Either way I hope you all have a very excellent holiday season, whatever you celebrate or don't celebrate as the case may be.
P.S. Forgive me, this is probably old news but who the hell allowed Noel Gallagher to surgically remove the joy and the christmas spirit from the song you hear and you know it's christmas* and release it?? Dear god if I wasn't depressed before, I certainly am now...
*Slade's So Here It Is Merry Christmas