japan

[kaylapoo]

i fail so badly at blogging i just don't even bother...until now? so much has happened since arriving here in september though and it's safe to say now that i now realize where i want to be in the future and it's not in japan. i'll be going home in february and taking a semester off school since i'm arriving a month into the spring semester. that's cool though. i've never felt so emotionally, physically, and mentally drained in my life before until coming here and it wasn't until i received proper attention that i realized i was under intense stress thus my barely eating and poor health. this isn't to say that i'm not having fun though. i enjoy japan. i'd like to visit in the future, but not live or work here. i'm really looking forward to going home and getting myself together again. i'm going to try and do as much as i can before leaving japan. everything is just so god damn expensive in tokyo though so shit is tough. i've never stressed so much about money and spending so much and i guess it's some sort of reality check? regardless, i have a difficult time relaying my feelings and i've taken up going to a counselor (also a first for me). there's just important things when it comes to health that japan, or perhaps just in my area, lacks. it's unbelievable and disappointing. fuck i sound so pessimistic about this whole experience and this country, but these are the only things that have been on my mind lately. there are plenty of good things to japan and it's going to be those things that i'm going to miss the most after departing. ok i'll just share pictures now. some of them look really big :0





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the view of tokyo tower from roppongi on the night of the hobbit red carpet event



















some of my room






i'll probably post more pictures before i leave/when i get back. i'm not sure yet. my plans as of now are good and i'm looking forward to next week and what's all to come really.