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[kayladoop]

It feels good to be independent and happy. I know now I am stronger than I have ever been. I did and went through something I thought I would never be able to do, and it feels good to know that. I know if I can do that I can get through just about anything. I have never been so happy in my life and everyone sees it, my friends, my family, everyone. I can't remember the last time I cried, and honestly, I remember I used to cry every single day and night, over something, anything. Life is too short to hold yourself back, life is way too short to let what people think influence the decisions you make. I am so happy with who I am. I am so happy with who my friends are, they are seriously the best and most caring people out there. They fucking do so much for me and I know they would do eveything for me and that means so much to me. I am there for them always and they are there for me always, just like real friendships should be, and we don't let anyone get in the way of that ever. I am so happy I decided to start dating Mike, truth is, I am crazy about this kid, he has been my best friend for so long and he has always meant so much to me and I have always meant so much to him. We used to fight all the time, seems like it was frustration of our attraction to each other because we don't argue at all, we have nothing to argue about. It feels great to be on good terms with him, the best terms, we can finally call each other our own, it seems like we waited forever for this to come, and it's apparent how happy we both are. My life is going just how it should be, fucking amazing. I am 18 and I should be living my life to it's fullest, which I do every single day. I can honestly said that. I can honestly say now, that if I were to die tomorrow, I did everything I could to be the happiest I can and live the best life I can live. This feels so fucking good.

Thank you family, mom, dad, Emily, Justin. Thank you friends, Vanessa, Raquel, Mike, Matt, John, Shane, James, Lindsay, Jenn, Kevin, and Erika.

And thank you old friends, Zach, Lauren, Leah, Natalie, Andy, Kyle, Derek, Mike, Sean, Kelcie, Lauren G, Pete, and everyone else I missed, for making me the person I am today.