Damn
So today was not the best day but it wasn't the worst either. I mean me and Katie go into a big fight early this morning about 3 am and i'm over it :) bc i love her and i know she didn't mean but i woke up and started puking which was totally gross theni went to sleep for a few hours and i woke up and talked to katie all day :) i love her she is the best <3 i think i'm about to call my mom i haven't really haven't talked to her in like forever. i mean i miss her but i hate her at the same time bc she fucking left me. Katie says she she loves me and that she just wants to be with ricky and be happy but i just don't understand why i can't make her happy. i mean i love her and i just don't get it. i guess i never will who knows? i know i don't. you i give up it seems like nothing i ever do is ever good enough for anyone i say the wong thing to my girlfiend and make her not want to talk to me and then idk i guess me being gay freaked my mom out and made her want to leave me idk but i'm not good enough i never will be i'm just a big failure so i guess i'll just go do some thing idk