oh july
so i finally went hiking this morning. and i frickin kicked my ass, gave me blisters, made me out of breath and my heart was pounding in my chest. and it was fucking amazing. since i didnt have anyone to go with, i decided to leave to miss traffic, when my dad and bro left for work this morning. so i got up at 4:30, was gone just after five and started hiking at 6:16 to be exact, took me two hours to hike up to the lake, i didnt stay up at the top for more than probably a few seconds 1. it was socked in with clouds 2. bugs 3. if i stopped moving i got cold 4. bugs. seriously what good are musquitos? beats the hell out of me. but yeah and i've been trying to have something to do all day so i dont take a nap then sleep crappy tonight. i have an outreach thing for work tomorrow and we're going up to issaquah to do some trail building. so in an attempt to keep myself busy, i made cookies for tomorrow. :0) oatmeal rasin. i think i might have put a tiny bit too much cinnamon in them though. you should just barely be able to taste the cinnamon usually, but this time it seems a little stronger. and tonight i'm going to attempt dinner with help of course, otherwise it would be a big mess = no dinner :0) but we have a bunch of chicken and snow peas, so i searched for a recipe and i found one that i think will be good. they're chicken thing wraps.
i cant believe in just over a month it'll be back to pullmania. crazy stuff......
i dont know if i'm ready to go back. i really miss all my friends and such and i've discovered i miss school itself. my poor brain hasnt been really stimulated in a while (but i know once i'm in school i'm gonna wanna not do work). but again even though i miss those things..... i love it here. i have found a wonderful place in my life. i am sooooooooooo glad i moved up north. i wouldnt have survived at my mom's. she's crazy. i have a wonderful job here with amazing people and i really dont want to leave that in the slightest bit. my manager said i'm more than welcome to come back during my breaks from school (which i was/am prett stoked about) but it wont be the same ya know?
tonight i should be making dinner as stated, my bro and i are going to go in search for a pair of shoes for him. skate shoes i would imagine.
hiking today brought about many realizations (i think i spelled that wrong?)
1. while hiking my fat ass up those evil switchbacks, i was talking to my dog. i took many breaks going up because i am so out of shape. i called for niko to wait (she was off leash) because old fat kayla cant keep up. then i thought a thought. i am NOT OLD in any way shape or form. so if i'm not old then i shouldnt be fat. and no i'm not saying i'm fat because i know i'm not i'm at the "average" weight for my height blah blah blah. but there is no excuse for me for being this out of shape. reminicising on old years when i hiked every weekend, those switchbacks never schooled me like they did today. i was a little trailblazer.
2. i love hiking because i love the challange. ex: backpacking: when we hiked through a fucking mountain pass. most intense/amazing/satisfiying thing i have ever done. i never really considered myself a competative person until a friend of mine made a comment about me being competitive. i said me? i really dont think i'm that competitive then in turn to that, the other two agreed. so i thought about it and realized wow. they are completely right. i'm not much of an athlete, but looking inside i realize how much i compete with myself in my head. push myself to go that much further and that much higher. the same with running. i dunno but i do love hiking because of the challenge of it. unlike anything else. it's you against nature. and you have no control what so ever as to what nature is going to do. i know i sound crazy, but the outdoors make me feel alive. it also makes me think i would have been a good hunter gatherer :0)or an excellent hippie
3. never wear low top hiking shoes: if i hadnt worn my high ones today, i would have been laying on the ground of the trail with a broken ankle, waiting for someone to find me. no good at all.
4. i want a puppy of my own to train and make her/him into a hiking trail dog (i brought niko with me today)
5. i love my life
6. i dont believe in mistakes, i believe in an experience
so i know i'm random but whatev. i have realized i am in an amazing place in my life. and i think that no matter what life throws at me, my outlook on life will just be accepting it, making the best of it and being happy
you cant replace happiness in your life. and the ONLY person who can make you happy is you.
i cant believe in just over a month it'll be back to pullmania. crazy stuff......
i dont know if i'm ready to go back. i really miss all my friends and such and i've discovered i miss school itself. my poor brain hasnt been really stimulated in a while (but i know once i'm in school i'm gonna wanna not do work). but again even though i miss those things..... i love it here. i have found a wonderful place in my life. i am sooooooooooo glad i moved up north. i wouldnt have survived at my mom's. she's crazy. i have a wonderful job here with amazing people and i really dont want to leave that in the slightest bit. my manager said i'm more than welcome to come back during my breaks from school (which i was/am prett stoked about) but it wont be the same ya know?
tonight i should be making dinner as stated, my bro and i are going to go in search for a pair of shoes for him. skate shoes i would imagine.
hiking today brought about many realizations (i think i spelled that wrong?)
1. while hiking my fat ass up those evil switchbacks, i was talking to my dog. i took many breaks going up because i am so out of shape. i called for niko to wait (she was off leash) because old fat kayla cant keep up. then i thought a thought. i am NOT OLD in any way shape or form. so if i'm not old then i shouldnt be fat. and no i'm not saying i'm fat because i know i'm not i'm at the "average" weight for my height blah blah blah. but there is no excuse for me for being this out of shape. reminicising on old years when i hiked every weekend, those switchbacks never schooled me like they did today. i was a little trailblazer.
2. i love hiking because i love the challange. ex: backpacking: when we hiked through a fucking mountain pass. most intense/amazing/satisfiying thing i have ever done. i never really considered myself a competative person until a friend of mine made a comment about me being competitive. i said me? i really dont think i'm that competitive then in turn to that, the other two agreed. so i thought about it and realized wow. they are completely right. i'm not much of an athlete, but looking inside i realize how much i compete with myself in my head. push myself to go that much further and that much higher. the same with running. i dunno but i do love hiking because of the challenge of it. unlike anything else. it's you against nature. and you have no control what so ever as to what nature is going to do. i know i sound crazy, but the outdoors make me feel alive. it also makes me think i would have been a good hunter gatherer :0)or an excellent hippie
3. never wear low top hiking shoes: if i hadnt worn my high ones today, i would have been laying on the ground of the trail with a broken ankle, waiting for someone to find me. no good at all.
4. i want a puppy of my own to train and make her/him into a hiking trail dog (i brought niko with me today)
5. i love my life
6. i dont believe in mistakes, i believe in an experience
so i know i'm random but whatev. i have realized i am in an amazing place in my life. and i think that no matter what life throws at me, my outlook on life will just be accepting it, making the best of it and being happy
you cant replace happiness in your life. and the ONLY person who can make you happy is you.