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Well, it has been a real struggle recently. I really really want to dress up and experience a day out as kayla but being married (especially to someone who wouldn't approve) makes it very difficult. Don't get me wrong, I love her more than anything but she wouldn't understand or approve. Anyway, I have few opportunities to go shopping while she is working and tomorrow is one of those days. Her birthday is in a few weeks. I would love to leave here partially dressed and dress the rest of the way somewhere in town but I can't. Most of her things won't fit, the ones that do she may notice missing while I am gone and I have nothing of my own. It's a little depressing. I've tried saving a little (mainly birthday money) to buy a few things but it is so hard to actually buy anything because I need everything...wig, shoes, makeup, clothes, purse, jewelry, nails. I don't want to take any chances, if I dressed up and went out, I would want to be completely passable.
For now it will have to remain in my dreams and imagination.
For now it will have to remain in my dreams and imagination.