Catching Perfection - Drabble
Title: Catching Perfection
Author: kayjayloves
Chapter: 1/1
Pairing: Kai-centric
Band: The Gazette
Genre: angst
Rating: G
Warning: eating disorder
Disclaimer: Don't own them, of course. It's fiction.
Synopsis: "It had started unintentionally, a couple of missed meals in the chaos of touring and recording."
Comments: I was thinking about the recent pictures of Gazette earlier, and how Kai's looking near scarily thin, and this was born.
It had started unintentionally, a couple of missed meals in the chaos of touring and recording. He’d go a day on one small meal, hurriedly eaten in the morning before heading off to practice or recording or lives. He barely thought about it.
But he liked the results, the clearer definition of his cheekbones and the way clothes fell on this thinner frame.
He started purposely seeing how long he could go between meals, tracking the amounts, feeling the accomplishment of his own self-control. He’d cook for the others, watch them eat, and feel a twisted sort of pride as he sat there with an untouched portion.
The bones under his skin grew more prominent, the numbers on the scale dropped, but it was never enough. He wanted to see how far he could go - how much more he could restrict, how much longer he could go without giving into the need to eat.
When the others finally started to notice, started to make comments about his weight and his eating and ‘oh man Kai you have been taking care of yourself, right?’ He soothed their worries, made excuses about eating earlier, and continued on. He didn’t take their worries to heart; they didn’t understand. He was catching perfection.
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Author's Notes: I actually really don't have anything to say about this.. But comments are love, as always. <3
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Author: kayjayloves
Chapter: 1/1
Pairing: Kai-centric
Band: The Gazette
Genre: angst
Rating: G
Warning: eating disorder
Disclaimer: Don't own them, of course. It's fiction.
Synopsis: "It had started unintentionally, a couple of missed meals in the chaos of touring and recording."
Comments: I was thinking about the recent pictures of Gazette earlier, and how Kai's looking near scarily thin, and this was born.
It had started unintentionally, a couple of missed meals in the chaos of touring and recording. He’d go a day on one small meal, hurriedly eaten in the morning before heading off to practice or recording or lives. He barely thought about it.
But he liked the results, the clearer definition of his cheekbones and the way clothes fell on this thinner frame.
He started purposely seeing how long he could go between meals, tracking the amounts, feeling the accomplishment of his own self-control. He’d cook for the others, watch them eat, and feel a twisted sort of pride as he sat there with an untouched portion.
The bones under his skin grew more prominent, the numbers on the scale dropped, but it was never enough. He wanted to see how far he could go - how much more he could restrict, how much longer he could go without giving into the need to eat.
When the others finally started to notice, started to make comments about his weight and his eating and ‘oh man Kai you have been taking care of yourself, right?’ He soothed their worries, made excuses about eating earlier, and continued on. He didn’t take their worries to heart; they didn’t understand. He was catching perfection.
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Author's Notes: I actually really don't have anything to say about this.. But comments are love, as always. <3
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