More Grey than Blue
Now listen up, here's a story, about a little guy that lives in a blue world. And all day and all night and everything he sees is just blue, like him, inside and outside
But what happens when his world begins getting overtaken by shades of grey? At first the blue just seems to be getting lighter when it eventually turns into a full colorless picture. I thought at one point I could distinguish that spectrum, but it turns out yet again, I'm not as experienced as I thought.
I can't even distinguish my own colour spectrum properly anymore. Things in life I thought I would never do, have become apart of me. Things I thought I would never say, never believe; my mind's tide has switched direction. Is life really meant to be a colorless rip tide, surprising you at every couple feet you walk in to the ocean that is the real world?
I have traversed the shallow side of the ocean and seen the blue waters it has to offer. But now I want to see the deep blue that resides further out. But the closer and closer I get to the deep, the more the blue fades into grey. Is this gradient an illusion of my mind, or is it really how it is? I was always taught that you could make anything of yourself if you wanted to, so is this grey my own mind holding me back?
I have always been lucky enough to swim sideways out of the grasp of the dangerous rip currents that are life's lessons, whether it's by myself or with the help of others, but now I doubt my ability to swim. I feel like i made it to the Bermuda Triangle, but I can't quite figure out how to get through it without someone's help.
I am confusing myself with whom I want help from. I am lonely, and I will openly admit that. But I find myself looking for a potential "significant other" in many people, but I'm not sure if it's the right people. I still have many levels of independent development that I need to attain, and I'm well on my way.
My vacation is over tomorrow. It's time to rebound back to normal life. So many changes are coming. I'm going back to an unfamiliar and new branch, although the same people are there minus a couple. I've been in unfamiliar territory out of city all week. I'm moving into my new apartment to start my new life in just over a week. I have been adjusting to a new phone. I have developed a new group of friends that have graciously included me into their circle. Now, it's time to start changing and re-adjusting those special things about me that need to be changed.
The gradient has brought me to the divider; now that i've hit that absolute grey, it's time to venture out further to the deep blue waters that I desire ~_~_~
But what happens when his world begins getting overtaken by shades of grey? At first the blue just seems to be getting lighter when it eventually turns into a full colorless picture. I thought at one point I could distinguish that spectrum, but it turns out yet again, I'm not as experienced as I thought.
I can't even distinguish my own colour spectrum properly anymore. Things in life I thought I would never do, have become apart of me. Things I thought I would never say, never believe; my mind's tide has switched direction. Is life really meant to be a colorless rip tide, surprising you at every couple feet you walk in to the ocean that is the real world?
I have traversed the shallow side of the ocean and seen the blue waters it has to offer. But now I want to see the deep blue that resides further out. But the closer and closer I get to the deep, the more the blue fades into grey. Is this gradient an illusion of my mind, or is it really how it is? I was always taught that you could make anything of yourself if you wanted to, so is this grey my own mind holding me back?
I have always been lucky enough to swim sideways out of the grasp of the dangerous rip currents that are life's lessons, whether it's by myself or with the help of others, but now I doubt my ability to swim. I feel like i made it to the Bermuda Triangle, but I can't quite figure out how to get through it without someone's help.
I am confusing myself with whom I want help from. I am lonely, and I will openly admit that. But I find myself looking for a potential "significant other" in many people, but I'm not sure if it's the right people. I still have many levels of independent development that I need to attain, and I'm well on my way.
My vacation is over tomorrow. It's time to rebound back to normal life. So many changes are coming. I'm going back to an unfamiliar and new branch, although the same people are there minus a couple. I've been in unfamiliar territory out of city all week. I'm moving into my new apartment to start my new life in just over a week. I have been adjusting to a new phone. I have developed a new group of friends that have graciously included me into their circle. Now, it's time to start changing and re-adjusting those special things about me that need to be changed.
The gradient has brought me to the divider; now that i've hit that absolute grey, it's time to venture out further to the deep blue waters that I desire ~_~_~