on top of it all... tee hee
So yeah... me and my mom had one of our lil talks this morning... i told her how i was feeling about junk.... like for example.... i have no idea what i wanna do for the rest of my life!! I mean... i just wanna write... and that's it... i don't wanna evaluate art or fix computers, i wanted to be a teacher before i had a kid... lol.... so we decided that i should start sending all theses things that i write to my aunt in california... she's an english professor at a university out there.... and for college... i should just become a) an english major or b) a editoral journalist major.... problem half way solved...
The last bit i didn't tell her... she gets so upset for me when i have problems in my life.... so i kept it to myself... and thought about it all last night and most this morning... i even had dreams about it lol.... In short.... i have a really huge life altering problem... i don't know whether to be happy... or upset... or freaking the fuck out... i don't know what my next step should be or which option to take... and i'm finding it very hard to make this decision on my own.... but like all things in my life have always been... in the end... i can be in a room full of ppl and i'm still alone...
I kinda understand that my thought process is an extreme compared to the rest of the population... and while it does suck and kinda spells out my doom in huge hellish letters right in front of my eyes every day... the sooner i accept it i guess the sooner those words won't be so bothersome... but for now i shall try to keep my hopes up... keep my head down and trudge through... "life's tough so get a helmet"... yeah... i know... i'm lame!
I shall now turn to the great one who has seen me through every prolem i have come across for words of inspiration.... "Choices are for one and all... All we are is leaves that fall..."
The last bit i didn't tell her... she gets so upset for me when i have problems in my life.... so i kept it to myself... and thought about it all last night and most this morning... i even had dreams about it lol.... In short.... i have a really huge life altering problem... i don't know whether to be happy... or upset... or freaking the fuck out... i don't know what my next step should be or which option to take... and i'm finding it very hard to make this decision on my own.... but like all things in my life have always been... in the end... i can be in a room full of ppl and i'm still alone...
I kinda understand that my thought process is an extreme compared to the rest of the population... and while it does suck and kinda spells out my doom in huge hellish letters right in front of my eyes every day... the sooner i accept it i guess the sooner those words won't be so bothersome... but for now i shall try to keep my hopes up... keep my head down and trudge through... "life's tough so get a helmet"... yeah... i know... i'm lame!
I shall now turn to the great one who has seen me through every prolem i have come across for words of inspiration.... "Choices are for one and all... All we are is leaves that fall..."