random thoughts of the moment
soooo im listening to the switchfoot cd i got for chrismtas and its totally amazing and thus ive been listening to it for quite some time...
i hope you all are having excellent winter breaks so far...they really arent long enough but they still rock... i went to altoona for christmas which was fun, i got to be in the cathedral again... you know all the times ive been in the cathedral i used to always look at where the readers//alter servers sat and wonder what itd be like to sit up there and i never ever knew id sit there one day but anyways thats besides the point..the cathedral looked beautiful like it always does at christmas and i got to see them put baby jesus into the manger and their nativity set is really big so its really cool... what i didnt know though is that theyre still trying to sell the house...i guess i shouldve known that it jsut never occurred to me since my pappap moved back up there n all so i went through the whole awww im gunna miss this house thing again but its ok...like before that weekend i wouldve been like ok cuz last time i was up there it was when she was still in the hospital and they were like moving in to the other hosue so the one in altoona was really empty and sad i guess but like this weekend it was decorated a lot like it used to be... a lot like it used to be and it was jsut so happy and so much like it always was and it made me happy :) anyhow my mom told me today that a lady came to look at the hosue and she liked it which is good...i hope she buys it only becasue thats what you want when you put a house up for sale and so yeah but yeahh...
so a lot of times i look back at how things used to be and i compare a lot to how thigns are now and as always, i overanalyze things, but i think what ive found from all this thinking is that like depending where i am i can be like a totally different person which really bothers me but i mean i guess everyone has that cuz you act differently based on your surroundings but i dont want that so thats my new years resolution...to find out who i want to be and then be it all the time. i think how i came to this conclusion was through valerie. she can always tell when im not being me and i personally think thats awesome. shell ask me whats wrong and catch me off guard so ill usually say im tired, im fine or whatever else pops into my mind becasue really nothign will be wrong but somehow i jsut wont feel quite right? i think im most myself when i talk, jsut talk, because anyone who knows me knows thats a skill ive aqquired ever since mrs dubick told me to "light a fire under it" when i was giving ym book report lol... but in certain situations or with certain groups of people i have problems jsut talking, and i guess thats whats bothering me. so my new years resolution i guess is really jsut being comfortable with me always, and knowing that no matter what, i really am never alone, so i dont need to worry...
happy new year :)
i hope you all are having excellent winter breaks so far...they really arent long enough but they still rock... i went to altoona for christmas which was fun, i got to be in the cathedral again... you know all the times ive been in the cathedral i used to always look at where the readers//alter servers sat and wonder what itd be like to sit up there and i never ever knew id sit there one day but anyways thats besides the point..the cathedral looked beautiful like it always does at christmas and i got to see them put baby jesus into the manger and their nativity set is really big so its really cool... what i didnt know though is that theyre still trying to sell the house...i guess i shouldve known that it jsut never occurred to me since my pappap moved back up there n all so i went through the whole awww im gunna miss this house thing again but its ok...like before that weekend i wouldve been like ok cuz last time i was up there it was when she was still in the hospital and they were like moving in to the other hosue so the one in altoona was really empty and sad i guess but like this weekend it was decorated a lot like it used to be... a lot like it used to be and it was jsut so happy and so much like it always was and it made me happy :) anyhow my mom told me today that a lady came to look at the hosue and she liked it which is good...i hope she buys it only becasue thats what you want when you put a house up for sale and so yeah but yeahh...
so a lot of times i look back at how things used to be and i compare a lot to how thigns are now and as always, i overanalyze things, but i think what ive found from all this thinking is that like depending where i am i can be like a totally different person which really bothers me but i mean i guess everyone has that cuz you act differently based on your surroundings but i dont want that so thats my new years resolution...to find out who i want to be and then be it all the time. i think how i came to this conclusion was through valerie. she can always tell when im not being me and i personally think thats awesome. shell ask me whats wrong and catch me off guard so ill usually say im tired, im fine or whatever else pops into my mind becasue really nothign will be wrong but somehow i jsut wont feel quite right? i think im most myself when i talk, jsut talk, because anyone who knows me knows thats a skill ive aqquired ever since mrs dubick told me to "light a fire under it" when i was giving ym book report lol... but in certain situations or with certain groups of people i have problems jsut talking, and i guess thats whats bothering me. so my new years resolution i guess is really jsut being comfortable with me always, and knowing that no matter what, i really am never alone, so i dont need to worry...
happy new year :)