random thoughts
soo i went to dinner with my dad tonight and actually TALKED with him about a lot of stuff
like the fact that i don't feel like he cares about me
and all the reasons why
and i asked him why he won't pay for my tuition
and a whole bunch of stuff thats been on my mind...
he cried when we left the restaurant...i hope something sunk in.
he told me i could come to his house on friday, but mat and i wanted to go to pbr and we can get tickets for like $30, so we want to go...and i wanna see his house and stuff, so yeah, i'll have to reschedule with my dad.
i hope he understands.
i'm nervous about meeting mat's parents, i hope it all goes okay...he met mine...its my turn.
i really hate how i look...i'm not searching for compliments, i'm just sick of taking pictures/looking at pictures where i'm the fat, ugly one. and i am, i don't want to hear compliments i don't..i'm just venting. appearance is important to me, idk why, but it is, it always has been. if i dont' feel like i look good then i don't feel good, then my confidence (the little bit that i have) goes down the drain. sigh
i get into these moods and idk how to get out of them
maybe i should just sleep.
yea.
kt
like the fact that i don't feel like he cares about me
and all the reasons why
and i asked him why he won't pay for my tuition
and a whole bunch of stuff thats been on my mind...
he cried when we left the restaurant...i hope something sunk in.
he told me i could come to his house on friday, but mat and i wanted to go to pbr and we can get tickets for like $30, so we want to go...and i wanna see his house and stuff, so yeah, i'll have to reschedule with my dad.
i hope he understands.
i'm nervous about meeting mat's parents, i hope it all goes okay...he met mine...its my turn.
i really hate how i look...i'm not searching for compliments, i'm just sick of taking pictures/looking at pictures where i'm the fat, ugly one. and i am, i don't want to hear compliments i don't..i'm just venting. appearance is important to me, idk why, but it is, it always has been. if i dont' feel like i look good then i don't feel good, then my confidence (the little bit that i have) goes down the drain. sigh
i get into these moods and idk how to get out of them
maybe i should just sleep.
yea.
kt