Apr 22, 2004 15:00
~Green Day
I have to say, I can not believe that this year is over. It blows my mind. Stacey is gone. She left about 45 min ago. I miss her already. She was such a great roommate. Katy is gone too. but for whatever reason that one doesn't make me as sad. I am really really sad. I am sitting in my empty room by myself. this is the strangest feeling. Bitter sweet. I am happy that i don't have any more classes, but i don't want to leave. I do not want to leave. i miss it already. I never thought I would like it this much, and it is over. I am no longer a freshman in college. Is it just me or doesn't it seem like it was just yesterday we were saying our good byes to each other. we were packing our bags and moving out.
I feel like i didn't appreciate it as much as I should have. It is over now and I can't help but think that i took so much for granted. I don't regret anything, at all. I loved every second of this year. I love my friends and... just everything. but it is over now and I have to go home to my mom and dad, and animals. to work and responsibility.
There is a poster in the hallway on the 4th floor. It says that we are close to freedom and the year is almost over. I am not close to freedom, I am months away from it. I hope this summer is good. No, not good, great, amazing, fantastic.
I know I have already said this millions of times, but i just can't believe that it is over. never has an end of the school year been so sad for me.
I really am not looking forward to moving. the packing, un packing shit... who comes up with this stuff?
I am still going to be here until saturday. I don;t know what i was thinking staying so much longer then i needed to. Maybe I was thinking that I wanted to spend more time with my girls here until I can't see them any more.
this summer will be great. myrtle beach, Lake Michigan with meghan and everyone, the road trip with miriam. who knows, maybe i will even get a nice tan.
well, I just needed to talk to someone...something. I am so sad that this year is over. that is all, it will be ok. Happy summer everyone!!!