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I am married now. I catch myself staring at the ring smiling.
It's funny to fall in love all over again.
I don't think things have ever been as fantastic between us as now.
But I am ill.
I am getting sick again, and I feel it in my every being. It creeps up on me, and threatens to choke me. I have not been ill like that for three years.
I love my life, I love th e music, and it's keeping me afloat. It's the rest I cannot handle.
There is only month left anyway...but I'm already sinking.
Gods, I'm such a loser.
And I'm giving into it! Well, not perfectly, I need to fix the small things that harm me before singing a show on Saturday. My leave today is mostly for the purposes of me having an upset tummy and in some ways to be small...
this might well be a form of PMS or something...
bah! *headdesk*
I just feel like I'm so very little right now.
I had a dream where I came to music school, and Helga Valborg and Óskar were there, and I was so happy to see them. And we were talking. Óskar said he had broken up wit Margrét and I asked why.
He said : "We were in this party, and when I enter the kitchen she's sitting at the table in blue, Italian lingerie, eating thai. I cannot say I was impressed. What sort of a person does that?"
Then I woke up.
It's funny to fall in love all over again.
I don't think things have ever been as fantastic between us as now.
But I am ill.
I am getting sick again, and I feel it in my every being. It creeps up on me, and threatens to choke me. I have not been ill like that for three years.
I love my life, I love th e music, and it's keeping me afloat. It's the rest I cannot handle.
There is only month left anyway...but I'm already sinking.
Gods, I'm such a loser.
And I'm giving into it! Well, not perfectly, I need to fix the small things that harm me before singing a show on Saturday. My leave today is mostly for the purposes of me having an upset tummy and in some ways to be small...
this might well be a form of PMS or something...
bah! *headdesk*
I just feel like I'm so very little right now.
I had a dream where I came to music school, and Helga Valborg and Óskar were there, and I was so happy to see them. And we were talking. Óskar said he had broken up wit Margrét and I asked why.
He said : "We were in this party, and when I enter the kitchen she's sitting at the table in blue, Italian lingerie, eating thai. I cannot say I was impressed. What sort of a person does that?"
Then I woke up.