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So, I spent the better part of 2 hrs lying in bed crying about something I can't change. And now I'm furious at myself for even allowing me to be this down about it. Maybe I'm just hormonal...nope, I think it could be that I have finally realized that my only living parent doesn't love me, b/c she can't even love herself.
I'm tired of trying to be perfect in some feeble attempt to win affection. I shouldn't have to.
I'm moving on. Doesn't mean the pain stops...just means I don't care anymore. I've lost one parent, and survived...
I'm going to work on undoing all of the warped things she has put into my head about myself...and maybe, just maybe I'll find peace...and eventually happiness.
<3
This is a good thing guys :)
I'm tired of trying to be perfect in some feeble attempt to win affection. I shouldn't have to.
I'm moving on. Doesn't mean the pain stops...just means I don't care anymore. I've lost one parent, and survived...
I'm going to work on undoing all of the warped things she has put into my head about myself...and maybe, just maybe I'll find peace...and eventually happiness.
<3
This is a good thing guys :)