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man this is a horrible day. good way to start out, first person i talk to wants nothing more than to insult everything about me. and hes supposed to be my friend. my really, really good friend. and now, now i just dont want to listen to him or put up with him. its amzing how people grow. and change. and i hate it.
does he actually think that im going to brush off his insults time after time? i mean, seriously. there are days when hes so great, and we have some really good conversations, and some really good laughs. but lately...all he can do is be mean. hes not how he was the beginning of the year, and i dont know what changed him. but i dont like how he is now...not at all. hes arrogant, and shallow, and hes just an ass. i cant stand it. but he thinks that...well, hey, just becuase i cant bear to even stay in the same tennis court as him, thats no reason for us not to be such great friends. honestly.
i wish that...well....i wish that i could stay in one time. like, have one really good day, and just stay there. no tomorrow, no yesterday. just those hours where i was truly happy, and satisfied with my self. but things change. things keep going, and things keep moving, no matter how hard you try to hold them back. and im sad, now, because this friend is not what he was when i was friends with him. i dont like him anymore, i dont enjoy his company. and i cnat tell him that, because it would just start more.
tennis. i want to play tennis so bad. but he ruined it.
does he actually think that im going to brush off his insults time after time? i mean, seriously. there are days when hes so great, and we have some really good conversations, and some really good laughs. but lately...all he can do is be mean. hes not how he was the beginning of the year, and i dont know what changed him. but i dont like how he is now...not at all. hes arrogant, and shallow, and hes just an ass. i cant stand it. but he thinks that...well, hey, just becuase i cant bear to even stay in the same tennis court as him, thats no reason for us not to be such great friends. honestly.
i wish that...well....i wish that i could stay in one time. like, have one really good day, and just stay there. no tomorrow, no yesterday. just those hours where i was truly happy, and satisfied with my self. but things change. things keep going, and things keep moving, no matter how hard you try to hold them back. and im sad, now, because this friend is not what he was when i was friends with him. i dont like him anymore, i dont enjoy his company. and i cnat tell him that, because it would just start more.
tennis. i want to play tennis so bad. but he ruined it.