A lot on my mind
So yea I know I haven't wrote in this thing in like forever, but I have a lot of things on my mind and I need to find a way to get it off. I wrote a blog on myspace but It didn't help me that much. So over the past three or four months I have come to realize that teaching isn't the thing for me. I mean i dread going to classes, I never want to do my homework. I just hate it anymore. I am more of a hands on learner, I can't get a lot of stuff by just reading it. And plus I don't think I could handle being a teacher. There is so much stress that goes a long with it and I really don't need anymore stress on myself that I already have. I had a scary reality check this past weekend. I have been stressing out more than usual lately and I wasn't doing anything at all and all of the sudden I had a panic attack out of the blue. I've never had one before, so it scared me. It also scared Evan to death, he kept looking at me telling me to calm down. I tried but nothing was working. Everyone that I was coming down with the flu, but I knew it wasn't it. I went and laid down in Evans bed and finally calmed down. My heart rate was finally back to normal. I am a constant worrier. I've tried not caring about stuff but it makes me stress even more.
So I am looking into something that won't stress me out while I'm getting my degree and when I'm working. I started looking into Beauty Schools. I love doing people's hair and make up so maybe that will be good for me. I don't know if its not that stressfull but I really would like doing that I believe. So I think this is my last semester here at Morehead. I mean I love the Campus but I think i need to be near home so I won't be so stressed out about everything and I have my family and boyfriend around me and they can calm me down. I am going to finish out this semester. But after this I think I'm going to be back in Floyd County. I'm not 100% sure, but I really think that will be good for me. I need a break kinda. And find something my heart really is into. I also want to try out for the Diamond Girls back at home. I will be dancing again if I make it. I just hope I am making the right decision and make myself happy.
So I am looking into something that won't stress me out while I'm getting my degree and when I'm working. I started looking into Beauty Schools. I love doing people's hair and make up so maybe that will be good for me. I don't know if its not that stressfull but I really would like doing that I believe. So I think this is my last semester here at Morehead. I mean I love the Campus but I think i need to be near home so I won't be so stressed out about everything and I have my family and boyfriend around me and they can calm me down. I am going to finish out this semester. But after this I think I'm going to be back in Floyd County. I'm not 100% sure, but I really think that will be good for me. I need a break kinda. And find something my heart really is into. I also want to try out for the Diamond Girls back at home. I will be dancing again if I make it. I just hope I am making the right decision and make myself happy.